I walked into Matty's, my head in a different place. He hadn't been talking to me for a few days and had been kinda distance so I thought I'd drop by and see how he was. Ross was out so I opened the door with the spare key. I shut the door quietly and made my way to Matty's room, I had kicked my shoes off at the door so the soft carpet had made me happy. I opened Matty's door and was met with a not so surprising sight, Matty was passed out on his bed with s bottle of wine and a joint. His room was a complete mess, food laid around the place, plates and cups, baggies of either coke or weed, empty bottles of wine and clothes are scattered around the place. I sighed and started cleaning up, throwing his clothes in a pile, taking the plates and cups down stairs, throwing the food in the bin. I collected up the baggies and emptied the coke into the toilet. Sitting the empty baggies and the ones with weed in them to the side. I picked up the wine bottles and placed them to the side, I took a deep breathe as I finished.
"Jupiter." Matty croaked out, I shook my head and turned to him. He was sitting up now, looking at me with sad eyes.
"I tell you I love you, we spend the day together then you ignore for days. Why Matty? And don't even try giving me some bullshit." I said and he just sighed, running a hand through his tangled hair. I watched as his eyes darted around the room, avoiding my eyes. He didn't say anything, but his eyes grazed over the cannabis and the empty bags of coke.
"What'd you do with the coke?" He asked and I looked at him, my eyes filled with tears as he just looked at the bags.
"Matty." I said softly, he didn't look at me, instead pulled at his skin. "Matty." I said a bit louder, he still didn't look, he started digging his nails into his arms. "Matty!" I yelled, this time he looked at me, his eyes pleading with me. I sat in front of him, his eyes wide and lost. He was biting his bottom lip with his front teeth, so bad that it was bleeding. I placed my hand on his own, he hadn't said anything and I was starting to panic. "Matty." I whispered. His body seemed to melt, his confused eyes filled with tears and he just stared at me, as he cried. I sat next to him, pulling him into me as he just sobbed. Eventually he calmed down, falling asleep in the process. I laid home down, struggling to pull of his clothes, he was sweating so I grabbed a cold cloth from the bathroom and placed it over his head, I pressed my lips to his cheek and lingered there for a second, as I pulled away I grabbed my phone and converted him over. I dialled George's Adam and was met with a loud thud.
"Oh hey sorry, I dropped my phone." He laughed and I sniffed.
"How quick can you get to Matty's?" I asked quietly so I wouldn't wake up Matty.
"I'm on my right now, are you okay?" George asked with a serious voice.
"I am, Matty isn't." I said looking back at him.
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George walked into the room and I didn't move from Matty's bed, I held his hand in my own and just stared at him. I could hear Ross and Adam's voices downstairs and I was thankful they didn't come up here.
"What happened?" George asked, laying a hand on my shoulder. I turned to him and looked at him with hurt in my eyes.
"Coke." I said and George just kind of broke, his body slumped a little, his head went forward and suddenly he was pale.
"The last time..." George dragged on and I nodded, placing my free hand on George's.
"I know, I know." I said softly, looking back towards Matty.
