I was a happy kid, I have nothing to complain about. Only one thing never left my mind. I never understood what it was, what it meant, what it wanted. Until the day I met Ana.
Ana was nice, comforting, soft and protecting me. She was always on the lookout for me. Following me everywhere, she never left my side. Through good and bad she was there. When I was sad I was going to the bathroom. Where she lives.
She was always beside the toilet or behind me when I was standing infront of the mirror. She kept telling me how pretty I am as I became slimmer, thinner. More perfect as she used to whisper in my ear.
"I remember that the more I had bones showing, the more I liked myself. The more I loved my reflection. It reached a point where I would suck in my stomach and my bra would fall straight to the floor. Honestly, I liked it. Ana loved it too. The feeling of my body as I was touching the thin layer of skin covering my bones was great. I could finally smile at myself."
She was my best friend, but at the same time, she was my worst enemy. She made me so weak I could barely stand up or do everyday task. Breathing was taking all the energy I had. Blinking was sometimes too hard.
Ana almost killed me.
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PoetryThis work is very personal and dear to me. When I was a teenager until now, I write down what I can't say to people face to face. No one knows about this, those poems and texts contain my deepest thoughts and my own, raw darkness. I hope every one o...
