The End of you and me

Goodbye

                    Alecs pov

I slwoly opned my eyes because the sun shone in my face and it was too bright to sleep. I sat up and looked around in the room which...wasn't my room it was his. I lifted quickly the blanket and my biggest fear came true. I was naked in the bed of my best friend and when I looked to him he was naked too. Shit 100 memories came back to me and I remembered what we did last night. I was close to cry because I knew for him it was a one nightstand but for me...for me it meant more. I watched him and saw that he was still in a deep sleep. I quickly stood up and got dressed as quiet as possible. I didn't want to talk with him now...I couldn't. He would only apologize and I could only tell him what we both already knew. I looked at him for the last time and I tried to take a picture of him with my mind before I walked out of his room and closed the door behind me. It was hard to hold back my tears but somehow I mannaged to let them only then fall whenI walked out of his house. I was so angry about myself that I let all this happen but I was drunken as hell and didn't know what I did. This was by farest the worst thing ever happned to me and now it was only more complicated. All this was so terrible that I didn't even cared about the horrible hangover i had. I knew if there was any chance we could get back what we had it was ruined now. My heart was broken into million little pieces and it was mine and his fault. We both shouldn't have done this because we knew it meant different things for both of us. I slept with someone I love and he slept with a friend. I almsot ran home because I wanted to get away from all this and running away sounded as a good solution for me. I knew it was almost impossible to get him out of my head now I have been so close to him. I arreived at my house after 10 minutes with a tear stream down my face and ran to my room. I grabbed a suitcase and threw all my cloths in it when my sister came in. "Al...what are you doing?" She asked confused but I didn't stopped ro pack. "I have to go. I have to leave him or I will ran back to him. I can't do this...not anymore." I said to her and it sounded like I was out of breath but actually trying to hold sobs back let me sound like that. "Fine but promise me you will come back to me." She said and I nodded while closing my suitcase. I checked my phone and saw that in 1 hour the next flight to Seattle would leave the airport. My mum bought me a ticket I could use when ever I want and I wanted to use it now. I couldn't stay here one day longer and having the fear ro bump into him. I walked to the room of my mum and knocked a few times. "Come in." She said softly and I walked inside. "Mum, can you drive me to the airport?" I asked and she walked quickly to me. "Sure." She saw that I was crying and this one time I was so glad that she didn't ask what happened. "Thank you." I sniffed and she hugged me tightly. She walked down the stairs and we put all my stuff in her car then I closed the door of my house which should be the last time for the next 5 years.

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               Magnus pov

I woke up in my bedroom and slwoly opned myself eyes. I sat up carefully and saw that I was naked but then it hit me like a train. I saw 1000 of memories in front of me of him and we having sex. Shit what did I just do. I thought and looked on the other side but it was empty. He left aleeady and I knew he didn't just leave my house. I couldn't think anymore and got up as quickly as I could because I had ro stop him. I didn't want him to leave like that and got dressed up quickly. All the thoughts in my head were killing me and I was so angry about what I did. I knew it meant more to him but I wasn't sure anymore what all this meant to me. I was so confused about all this and about all my feelings I felt for him. I couldn't think clearly and just ran downstairs out of my house and ran to his house. I ran as fast as I could and I arrived there after 5 minutes even you usually need 10 minutes. I never felt so afraid like I was when I knocked at his front door. I heard Izzys footsteps coming closer and she opned the door. She didn't look angry but she looked dissapointed and she had all right to be. "Issabelle, is he here?" I asked totally out of breath and just hoped the answer would be yes. "No. He left 15 minutes ago." She answered and my hear broke into little pieces. "Where did he go?" I asked it wouldn't be as bad as I thought. "Magnus, he will leave. He will go to Seattle and studdy there." She said with a weak smile and put a hand on my shoulders. I let the tears fall down and never in my whole life I felt so desperated. "Magnus, what happned tonight?" She asked and I looked down to the ground. "We had sex." I mumbled and I felt how she tensed. I knew she knew what Alec felt for me and she knew exactly what a big mistake it was. "Oh my...Magnus that is terrible." She sighed and I started to sob. She took a deep breath and then she lifted my chin with two fingers. "What do you feel for him? Do you really just love him as a friend?" She asked and I knew she wanted to kill both of us. "I...I don't know. Izzy, I am so confused." I sighed and she nodded. "Go and stop him." She suddenly said and I looked suprised at her. "Now." She said and raised her voice. I didn't say anything and just ran to my car because she was right...I had ro stop him. I started the car and I drove as fast as I could to be at the airport before it was too late. I had to tell him that I wasn't sure anymore what I felt maybe I could stop him. After 10 mintutes which felt like hours I areived at the airport and ran inside. The airport was huge and I tried to find him in all the groud of 100 of people. Then suddenly I saw him stading at the gate and Maryse was next to him. I ran ro him and grabbed his shoulders to turn him around and he looked at me like I was a ghost.
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                  Alecs pov

I stood with my mum at the gate when suddenly a hand grabbed my shoulder and turned me around. I looked at that someone and I couldn't belive my eyes...it was him. "Wh...what are you doing here?" I asked and it was hard ro not start crying. "Don't leave. You can't run away." He said and I heard he begged me to stay here. I had to take a deep breath and made a step backwards. I couldn't bear to be so close to him anymore. "I have to." I said with a low voice and he started to cry. It hurt so much to see him suffer like that but I suffered too and it had to end. "Look, we only get hurt and it isn't working anymore. I have to move on and this is the only way." I explained and he looked at me with a tearstream down his face. "I love you." He mumbled and I was shocked for a few seconds but then I put myself together. "You don't and that's okay. You just think you love me but I want you to really love and I know you will never do." I said and walked a bit closer agin. "Why can't you just belive me that I do." He asked and looked at me with a broken look. "Because I know you better than anyone else probably even better than you do." I said softly and a tear escaped my eyes. "I am so sorry, Alexander. I never wanted to hurt you or lose you as a friend. I could slap myself for sleeping with you and you know it is not because it didn't felt good. I regrett it because for me it doesn't means the same as it does for you." He sniffed and I hugged him to say goodbye. "It will be okay. I know you are sorry and I'm sorry for starting all this. I tried to push it back but I can't...not anymore." I said with a cracking voice and he hugged me back to sob in my chest. "Promise me you will come back and promise me you will be okay." He sobbed and I pulled back from the hug to look in his eyes. I cried too and all this was like a movie but for us it was realy and it hurt like hell to say goodbye. "I will be okay. I just have to get you out of my head and let you go. I try to save our friendship if it's possible and this is what I'm doing now." I said softly and he nodded. "I can't belive you will leave." He sniffed and whipped his tears with his sleeve away. "I have to go. Magnus, I want to get back what we had and I onyl see that way to get it maybe back. You were my best friend and this is what I want to feel. I want to have feelings for you as a friend not this feeling I have now." I said with a sad smile and he nodded weakly. The tears wouldn't stop to run down my cheeks and I didn't try to hold them back anymore. He cried to and I placed my hand on his shoulder. 《Flight 1267 from New York to Seattle.》 The woman announced and I new it was time to say goodbye. "Be careful." I said and he pulled me in for a last hug. "You have to be carefull too." He sniffed and let slwoly go of me. "Goodbye mum." I said and hugged my mum. She stood the whole time next to us but a little bit away. She knew we both needed to say goodbye. She hugged me and rubbed my back. "I love you and visit me." She said and let go of me. I nodded and then I walked through the door to the plane without turning around. I sat down on my place of the plane and looked out of the window. This was the hardest goodbye I ever had to say and I hope there would no other. I felt how someone sat besides me and I turned to look at that someone. The man was probably the same age as me and he was really handsom. He smiled at me with his blue eyes and held his hand in my direction. I took his hand and he shook it lightly. "Hey, I'm Riley."

Okay this is the end of the first part of this fanfiction. This fanfiction made me cry like no otherfanfiction of me. I hope you liked it and the Sequel will be out when I'm done with my final exams. Please leave me a comment and tell me what you think❤❤❤❤❤❤🌸🌸🌸🌸