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Childhood Crush and Desires

When Lance was small he once had a crush on someone, but he didn't notice. He always talked about them, telling everyone how beautiful they were, how much he loved their smile, their laugh, their everything.
He talked so much about them that the others started go get annoyed.

It didn't stop. Instead, it started to turn into love, caused by all the actions his crush did, the way these two interacted.
His loved one would sometimes give him a kiss on the cheek, causing him to blush madly, grinning just like the idiot he was.

One day they held hands because otherwise they may could have gotten seperated in a very crowded place. Lance loved the feeling of his hand in their hand. He loved walking around like that, but he was a little embarrassed, worrying about what the others might think. They did so much together, and built a really strong bond.

He was oblivious to his feelings until a long time later, first needing to feel the emptiness inside of his heart after the accident happened. The accident that caused his loved one to lose his memory. The accident that turned him into a stranger for them. The accident.. that split their ways.

After that, he held hands with a lot of people. He didn't know why, but he just had this strong desire to hold hands with everyone he really liked. He acted around these people just like he did around his old love. He sometimes even debated wether he was in love with these people or not.
He couldn't figure it out 'till the day he met Keith again. Keith, who forgot about him. Keith, who didn't know him anymore. Keith, who was still as beautiful as he was back then.

He didn't know how it happened, but he somehow ended up holding hands with Keith again. They ran away, being chased.
It wasn't a situation to be happy about, not a moment to enjoy. But he did so anyway.
Because it just felt right. It just felt so good.

After that, he found himself thinking about Keith so much again. He found himself desiring holding hands much more than before. But nothing felt as good as holding hands with Keith.

It wasn't until it was too late that he finally realised he was in love with Keith.
It wasn't until he found himself crying after finding out Keith found someone he loved and was now in a relationship, that he found out just how much he liked Keith. How much he loved Keith.

Now he was left alone with his feelings towards Keith, with Keith knowing and respecting, but nothing else. And he hated it.
Because he was always reminded that his love towards Keith he just discovered, would always be one-sided. And he'd never stop loving Keith. He'd always love him.
That, he knew for sure.

- 06.06.2017