If These Sheets Were States//jalex

Chapter Four

Note
Again, I'm sorry about the timeskip! Once we get into the actual story, there's going to be nowhere near as many, and if there are, it will most likely be like a couple of weeks tops. That being said, I hope you enjoy the chapter!

Another three months had passed, the boys told each other everything. There wasn't a single thing that Jack didn't know about Alex, and there wasn't a single thing that Alex didn't know about Jack. Almost.

This one stupid secret he just couldn't bring himself to share, he didn't even understand why. Alex had done it, why couldn't he? It's not like Alex would freak out and never talk to him again, that was certain. So why was it so difficult for him just to say "I'm gay"?

He didn't really have to tell Alex. He didn't really have to tell anyone. Maybe if he ignored it for long enough, it'd just disappear and he could forget this ever happened. Maybe it was just a phase?

But he knew that wasn't true. He knew it was just wishful thinking, because he knew exactly who he had a crush on. And he knew that he didn't stand a chance with him, because who would want an obnoxious, greasy haired, short boyfriend who can't get grades high enough in school? Maybe it wouldn't be so bad if his balls would just fucking drop already.

But he didn't know that all of those things were what that one stupid, perfect boy loved about him. He loved his high voice and found it adorable when he got embarrassed about it, he loved getting to help him when he couldn't do his homework, and he adored his floppy hair, how he'd have to push it out of his face every three minutes.

But Jack didn't know that, so would he come out to Alex, and find the guts to say he loved him? Absolutely not.

Currently, they were on a video call, as they always would on a weekend. It was sunny outside, which would've normally made both of them happy, but they just wished they could go and mess around in the sun together, like best friends would.

"Y'know. Say you were... here..." Jack pointed to one point on his bedsheets, "and I was all the way over here," he pointed to the opposite end, "I'd just... I'd fold the ends together to bring you closer, until we were together. Because I really want you to be here... and I don't like to do just... normal things without you here... I don't know."

"That'd make a really good song, y'know?" Alex chuckled a little, actually thinking about how he could make that a song. He did love to write songs, and that sounded like such an adorable idea.

"Really?" Jack smiled, proud of thinking of such a fantastic... metaphor? Then that stupid urge to come out came back. He could do it, he'd just said the gayest thing ever, and he knew Alex wouldn't judge him. "Can I tell you something?"

"Yeah, of course. What's up?" Alex was so casual, it calmed Jack but also made the tightening in his chest worse. He could fucking do it, he was past the point of return. He'd never gotten this far before.

He felt dizzy, but he told himself it was just nerves. Was this how Alex felt? "I'm gay. I'm- oh god- I'm... I'm gay..."

Alex just smiled, a mix of feelings on his face. All positive ones, Jack could clearly tell that he was proud, happy, there definitely wasn't anything negative. "That's okay."

That was familiar. He knew where he remembered it from."That's- that's what I said when you-"

"I know. That's because there's not a lot more to say about it. I'm proud of you for telling me, Jacky," Alex smiled again, just to let Jack know he was genuine.

"Thank you." Jack could relax finally. It felt like a huge weight had been lifted off of his shoulders, he just felt better. "How did you come out to your parents?"