She's my killer Lauren/you

Chapter 20

Y/N's POV

I woke up with a pounding headache and groaned.I opened my eyes and expected to be in Camila's and my bed,but I realized I was in some apartment.I turn around and see the other side of the bed empty.

"What?"I say to myself and sit up holding onto my head.I saw I wasn't in my clothes and was even more confused.I rub my temples as I slowly run trough blurred memories of last night.Oh no."No,no,no.What the fuck was I thinking?!"I freak out to myself.I quickly put on the clothes I wore last night and just when I finish dressing the door opens.

"Oh you're awake.Good morning"Lauren says with a slight smile and walks past me to open the windows of the room.

"I umm need to go"I mumble and Lauren turns to look at me.

"I made breakfast,you don't wanna eat?"She asks slightly disappointed and I sigh.

"Sure,I'll stay for breakfast"I say and she smiles.

"Okay,you go to the bathroom do what you need to I just need to make the bed"She says and I nod.I walk into the bathroom and do what I had to,then come out to find a nice looking breakfast on the table.God why the hell did I do that?I sit down in front of Lauren and start eating.

"Thank you for last night"I say and she looks at me."I mean for helping me with that guy and taking me home"I say and she nods smiling.

"No need to thank me"She says and takes a bite out of her food."Do you umm remember anything else?"She asks and I knew that she was thinking of the kiss.

"Yeah...I am sorry for um doing that.I don't even know what I was thinking"I say and put down the fork and put my head in my hands.

"I umm shouldn't have kissed you too Im sorry about that"She says and I nod.I think of it again and I remember I asked her what she wanted and that she kissed me then...she wanted that kiss.

"Lauren?"I say and she hums in response.

"I asked you what you wanted and you kissed me then...what does that mean?"I ask her and she gulps.

"I-I don't know should I tell y-"

"Please Lauren I need to know"I say and she frowns.

"I still love you"She whispers and I sigh."Im sorry,I never stopped loving you.I was such an idiot to cheat on you a-"

"Yes you fucking were!You know trough how much pain you put me trough Lauren?!"I say tears gathering in my eyes.

"I know and I am so sorry cause of that.I am sorry I did that to you and to Luna and Ariana ya'll didn't deserve it.I regret that every day.I hate myself for doing that to you and I don't know how I can make you forgive me,I don't even know if its possible."

"Even if I forgave you,it can't really change much.I can't change Ari's and Luna's mind and I have a wife"I say and she nods.

"I know and trust me in some ways I am glad Camila was there.I always knew Camila liked you a bit,but she was respectful and didn't wanna ruin our relationship.But I am glad she was there to help you with the kids and to be your support.I am very aware I can't have you back and it is probably too late,but for fucks sake I miss you and want you so bad"She says breaking down in the end and I sighed.

"Lauren you know I can't do that"I say and she nods."I really need to go now"I say after taking the last bite and I get up.I walk to the doors and Lauren walks over to me.

"Can I ask you something?"She asks just above a whisper and I nod."Do you hate me?"She asks and I open the door.

"I could never hate you Lauren"I say and look at her once more."Bye Laur"I say and walk out.I walk to my house and when I open the door,I see Ariana and Ari's girlfriend on the couch and Luna sitting at the kitchen counter on her phone.

"Hola mama!"Luna exclaims and comes up to me hugging me and kissing my cheek.

"Hey mija"I say and smile at her.

"Hi mama"Ari says and I walk over to her giving her a kiss on the cheek.

"Hi and hi Shay"I say and Shay smiles politely at me.

"Hi Mrs.Cabello"She says and I smile.

"Did ya'll eat?"I ask and they nod."Okay Im gonna go call mom"I say and walk upstairs.I dial Camila and after a few rings she answers.

"Hey Y/N/N"She says happily and I smile.

"Hey Camzi.Hows the trip?"I ask and I was feeling extremely guilty and didn't know what to do.

"Good.I should be home by the end of today.How was last night?"She asks and I feel even more guilty.

"Good.I miss you "I say and it was true.

"I miss you too.I will be home soon tho okay?"She says and I smile.

"Okay.See you later then,be safe babe"I say smiling.

"See ya.I love you"

"I love you too"I say and we hang up.I go into the shower and think of everything.I need to get my shit together.

A/N:Hey guys.Im sorry for being so inactive lately,Im just having a bit of a writers block.But I hope you guys liked this chapter and if you did don't forget to comment and vote I always love reading your opinions and reactions.Love ya stay strong