Pain is love

Reality

*BUZZZ* my alarm was going off for me to wake up for school.i really didn't want to go but I had already missed 3 days straight.so I got up showered and got dressed.i got to school everyone was speaking but I ignored everyone I didn't want to be bothered .i really didn't know what was wrong with me but I just knew I was very down. I didn't want to talk to anyone but one person made me talk lol my ex his name is dee me and dee dated for 2years straight we were so in love but we figured it would be best if we took a break but he is like my bestfriend so we still communicate.he kept nudging me until I cracked a smile n he hugged me I couldn't even fight it I started smiling hard asf.he walked me to class n told me to have a good day. After school I would walk to work, I worked at McDonald's lol and I actually liked it well my coworkers because they made everyday fun.but it was one coworker I use to connect with on a different level. Me and him always spoke to each other and play around but I never took it serious because I would think "this nigga don't want me fr " until one day we kissed at work.every since then I had feelings for him I even went home thinking about him we started to text and I started getting attached more and more by the day. Me and dee still communicate and I just found a new Lil boo I was so confused. His name was Quincy and I was feeling jit so much I caught butterflies every time I walked in work to clock in 😭he made working a heaven for me 😭we got to know each other very well.but everything was so awkward because me, Quincy and dee all went to the same school and I knew I was going to get kinda caught up sooner or later .but I didn't care I was so deep in with Quincy. With him it felt different and I don't know why. Dee was like my bestfriend I told him everything but this about Quincy .and I wasn't sure how I was going to tell him that I still love him but I like another nigga