Bullies Fall In Love- JiminXBTS #Wattys2018

Slice (M)

The feeling of blood dripping down my wrist, why do I feel somewhat accomplished?

To erase the pain, replace it with more pain.

he saw himself, crying in a dark corner

there's blood everywhere

ssssssssssk

the sound of a knife

Jimin jolted awake, he was having one of those nightmares again. The ones that remind him of how worthless and stupid he is.

It was like a daily reminder for jimin.

a daily reminder telling him that he is nothing but a worthless piece of trash.

Fat

Ugly

Worthless

Trash

But he does try his best to overcome these feelings and the fact that the one that made him think this way was just across his room... It triggered something within Jimin. A feeling he could never erase.

What if they think Jimin is worthless?

What if they want me to disappear? 

Thoughts swarmed Jimin's head. He can never get rid of these nightmares, these emotions, and most especially, these suicidal thoughts. Because if Jimin was really over his illness he wouldn't keep a cutter inside his drawer.

Jimin frowned, he knew that he wouldn't be able to resist the thirst to cut himself. Just the thought of it made Jimin shiver. He didn't like hurting himself, but he knew it was for the best

because he was nothing.

nothing.

he was nothing.

He fought back the urge and stood up from his bed. Taehyung and Hoseok seemed to be outside already. Maybe they are having breakfast? Jimin thought.

Well, Jimin didn't care. He doesn't like eating breakfast anyway.

or eating at all.

He decided to go outside and take a shower. Just when Jimin was about to exit the room, the door swung open revealing Yoongi standing at the doorway.

"Why are you not eating breakfast yet?" He asked worriedly 

"I don't want to eat breakfast hyung, I'm still full," Jimin smiled.

If he hated anything, it was people talking about his meals. He hated it when they would tell him to eat more.

ᶠᶦʳˢᵗ ʸᵒᵘ ᵗᵉˡˡ ʰᶦᵐ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ʰᵉ ˢʰᵒᵘˡᵈ ˡᵒᵒˢᵉ ʷᵉᶦᵍʰᵗ

ⁿᵒʷ ʸᵒᵘʳ ᵇᵘˡˡʸᶦⁿᵍ ʰᶦᵐ ᶠᵒʳ ᵇᵉᶦⁿᵍ ˢᵏᶦⁿⁿʸ?

"Jimin."

it surprised jimin because of how Yoongi said his name so sternly.

"yeah?"

He grabbed Jimin's wrist and dragged him towards the dining room.

"If you don't eat I'm feeding you," Yoongi said almost scarily. But Jimin could notice the concern laced on his voice.

Jimin blushed and nodded.

He sat down next to Taehyung and Jungkook.

"You're finally awake, Jimin. Have some breakfast." Namjoon said.