Bullies Fall In Love- JiminXBTS #Wattys2018

Bonus Chapter

Cold.

Jimin feels cold. 

Even after all these time of doing his best, doing what's right, and doing his all. It was never enough, He was back at phase one. sulking, not knowing what to do. He felt useless, stupid, unworthy of all these things that he receives in his everyday life. It was like no matter what he did, he couldn't let go of his old self that somehow always finds a way to crawl back to his body.

An itching feeling of distress and anxiety.

 He hates it.

He hates the feeling.

He hates himself. 

Yes, they loved him. but the scars from the past left a traumatic experience for him. The fond look they give to him somehow still warps into a menacing smile that still haunts him whenever he remembers the past. He can't help it. Scars might heal, but memories don't go away. He hates himself for still getting affected over such things, even after being friends with them.

Did he do the right thing? Was it right to forgive him?

Even after what they did.

The punches, the kicks, and slaps, oh Jimin didn't care about those.

It was the words.

the insults.

And that's how Jimin ended up crying in the corner of his room.

alone

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Yoongi knocked on Jimin's room, a gift in his arms, he patiently waited outside the door with a fond smile on his face. He had just gone out to buy a cake for Jimin, after all, it is his birthday. 

the members and Junghyun had prepared a surprise for Jimin. Jungkook and Junghyun were currently at the kitchen waiting for Yoongi to surprise Jimin as their cue.

The others were already at a fancy restaurant and were waiting for the birthday boy and the 3 to pick Jimin up from the dorm.

 Yoongi waited for a good minute, yet the younger wasn't opening his door. He grew impatient and twisted the doorknob open, 

"Jimin-ah?"

There, he saw Jimin, with a razor clutched by his hand as tears stream down his face like a river. He was hesitant and scared, his whole body was trembling.

"JIMIN!" Yoongi shouted. He dropped the gift on the floor.

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"JIMIN!"

Junghyun and Jungkook heard Yoongi shout from the other room, instantly they whipped their heads and glanced at each other. They stood up from the kitchen stools and head straight to Jimin's room.

They grew shocked and worried.

Yoongi immediately went to Jimin and hugged him tightly, his free hand taking the razor from Jimin. 

"I am so s-sorry!" Jimin cried.

"Shh.." Yoongi soothed as he rubbed his back.

They let Jimin calm down before they asked him about it.

"Why were you doing this, Jiminie..." Jungkook asked.

He fiddled with his fingers nervously, afraid of judgment.

"We love you for who you are, you don't have to be afraid" Junghyun held Jimin's hand.

"I.. I was still scared. I still hate myself, and.. I couldn't forget about those things from the p-past." 

Jungkook and Yoongi glanced at each other worriedly.

They knew it was their fault for Jimin's mental health.

Jungkook grabbed Jimin's hand and intertwined their fingers, he squeezed it reassuringly. 

"You don't have to be afraid to tell us, it was our fault back then. I know its hard to forget, but please give us a chance to show you who we really are now... I could be better than I was, and we could replace the bad memories with good ones.." Jungkook smiled.

Jimin smiled, and oh they could never get tired of that smile.

"Jimin-ah.. don't cry anymore." Junghyun kissed his hand. 

"Yah... you're all making me flustered.." Jimin laughed. 

"mhm.. maybe we should leave already, the others are waiting for us, I don't want to hear Jin nagging on me again," said Yoongi.

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"saeng il chuk ha hamnida!, saeng il chuk ha hamnida!

saranghae park jimin!, saeng il chuk ha hamnida!!"

Jimin blew the candles and smiled.

"What did you wish for?" Tae asked

"To love myself."