Black Cat || Yoonmin

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Yoongi can still remember the day he first noticed he was different from the people around him. They ate things he couldn't and they feared people like him.

That is the reason he never told anyone about his true nature. Never could tell them about his true self. The only person, other than his younger brother Jungkook, he can talk openly about all of that is his friend Hoseok, who is the same "thing" as Yoongi and Jungkook.

Sometimes Yoongi questioned if he was a monster just like people thought he was. It was tormenting him and no one could soothe the pain he was going through because of that.

They are thought of as monsters and Yoongi can't really be mad about that for essentially that is right.

If he had been able to he would have chosen to be as normal as his human friends, but he isn't and never will be.

He is a murderer and he couldn't really change it.

He devours their flesh and he can't change it at all.

He thirsts for their bodies and despises himself for it.

He is a ghoul and no one except for Jungkook and Hoseok knows.

Yoongi is aware of the fact that he can't tell his friends about it. They would be scared of him. They would snitch him out to the CCG. And then they wouldn't only kill him, but also his brother and best friend just like the rest of his family. He just can't risk it.

He isn't delusional and he knew the risks of living in the human society from the very beginning. But he just can't stay away from them either. They aren't only food to him but also friends.

Interacting with them feels much more genuine than when he talks to another ghoul.

They just seem much softer around the edges and you don't have to constantly fear a territorial fight like you do with some ghouls who you aren't very close with.

However, he knows that humans could become just as dangerous to him as some assholes of his kind.

The doves have always been a fear of his. A fear fostered by the bedtime stories they were told as kids, by the raids they had to flee from and escape to the human world and finally the dull eyes of his parents looking at him silently screaming for him to take his younger brother and run away.

He can feel anger pulsing through his veins, bloodlust being pumped through his body while his eyes are about to change their unique blue tint into a frightening black and red as his kagune started to slightly escape his body just by thinking of the day he and Jungkook have lost everything.

With slow and deep breathes he was able to keep it in but Yoongi can still feel his anger and sadness and exhaustion from the force of his emotions hits him like a train and makes his knees buckle.

Jungkook finds him like this hours later, tear tracks on Yoongi's face and the smell of his kagune still thick in the room. Without a word he just embraces his older brother and shushes him gently as he makes him lie down on his soft bed.

He can fell a hand carding through his black hair and a thumb wiping away stray tears. Should he feel bad that his younger brother had to comfort instead of the other way around? Maybe. But at that moment he just feels safe and loved and he needs nothing more than that to finally fall asleep to forget about his memories and not think about the blood seeping out of his mother's mouth as he ran away from home.

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"Yoongi hyung you look too skinny. You should eat more." Jimin complains and pokes Yoongi's tummy.

If he knew what that entailed he probably wouldn't talk about it like that. Hoseok however just grinned and cackled at the older.

"See hyung? I am not the only one who thinks you should eat more. It's unhealthy to starve yourself like you sometimes do."