i try not to attack myself
yet the words slip in and out of my mind
pathetic
useless
worthless
weak
weak for allowing myself to feel for someone
weak for caring when he left with ease
so am i worth nothing
when my only love left without a second thought
am i worth something
when i can't even see that in myself
i wish i could say
i love you
don't do this
you don't deserve this pain
but
maybe it's the will of the universe
to force struggles upon me
