Born To Play

One plus one makes one!

Dedicated to Seerat_CSKian

Raj's POV : 

"Chain bhi.. mera dard bhi..

Meri Aashiqui ab tum hi ho

Meri Aashiqui ab tum hi ho....." 

By the end of the song, everyone in the hall had stood up from their seats, cheering to me; some couples had started slow dancing, while others were just enjoying the song and music. As I completed the song, the crowd cheered enthusiastically with a chorus of 'once more', 'you rocked it', 'who's the lucky one', 'nautanki', wolf whistles and all sorts of weird sounds that humankind can ever make.

I glanced my attention towards Aditi to see her reaction. It was still the same - shocked. No sign of happiness, or even anger for that matter. Just plain - blank! It hurt my heart to see that but I think, she'll soon recover. I kept on looking at her face, desperately searching for that one emotion that could surface any moment. My heart was beating real fast to see how she'll react. My enthusiasm was at its peak. If she wishes, I'll even announce to the crowd as to who that special girl is.

But time passed by, without any trace of change in her emotion on her face. I could see Simran and that guy from her group whispering something in her ears, which I'm sure she wasn't paying attention to. I knew her total attention was on me, but why is she not reacting? Please say something Aditi, at least a smile? But no. She didn't.

My heart was sinking by the minute. Does this mean, she dosen't like me back? God No! Please not that. But her silence is speaking a lot at the moment.

I thought when I would finish the song. she would be smiling ear to ear. I had imagined that her coming running to me and hit me on the chest saying Idiot, couldn't you say this before? And then hug me tight like she meant it. I would then hug her back with the same passion, assuring her that I'll never let her go. 

But now, all my dreams are seeming to shatter. Nothing of these was happening right now. And looking at the situation, I doubt if it would ever happen. Her silence was killing me now. Aditi please, please say something. Nopes! She still isn't. This just couldn't be happening.

I looked at her face one last time to see any expression but no! I was again dissapointed. I gulped down that lump and lowered my eyes, jumping down the stage before anyone could read my emotions. I guess I had to accept the reality now. How much ever I hate to think this, but she dosen't love me back.

"Hey man, are you.." Varun started but I put a hand on his shoulder, backing him off, without even picking my eyes. Slowly, I walked out of the hall, not even knowing where I was heading to. I just walked to where my feet took me.

First time in my life, I felt something painful in my heart - The pain of rejection. High hopes Raj. You had too much over-confidence on yourself. My inner voices started yelling at me. I honestly had. I never thought I would be rejected by Aditi, again. Shit! That imaginary feeling of someone ripping your heart, which I always thought was bullshit, I was actually feeling that right now. I've asked so many girls out, none have rejected me. I wouldnt even mind getting rejected there. And Aditi? A girl I've started to love from my heart and soul, she dosent.. dosent love me back? Why? Just why? Now I know how the girls I left behind must've felt. Its all making sense now - Its my own karma.

I walked towards the football ground aimlessly, knowing no one would be there right now. I just kept kicking the stones, thinking about one thing, what if Aditi dosen't talk to me now? She obviously knows this was directed towards her and now, I just hope she dosen't blow up. No relationship with her is already a pain but not even on talking terms - That would probably take the life out of me.