If Only

Chapter 4- Nash Knows

Matthew's Point of View

I hopped into Nash's car.

"Hey bro, thanks for coming to get me in such a short notice." I said. Nash nodded and backed out of Taylor's driveway. I looked back at his house, remembering the kiss.

"Ok, what's going on Matt?" Nash asked. He always knew what was up.

"Huh? Oh, nothing I just-"

"You and Taylor kissed." He stated.

How did he know that?

"What?! No! Why would you say that?" I denied. I had to keep our kiss a secret.

"Yes you did, you're lying." Nash said, using my line.

I sighed. "How did you know?" I was defeated. Some how, Nash knew.

"I could see it in your eyes." Nash said. He sounded just like Taylor. "Wanna talk about it?" He asked.

I shrugged. "Well, we kissed and then I suggested some time apart and now here I am." I said.

"Oh. Well, did you like it?" Nash pushed. I had to tell him because if I didn't, he would bug me about it. It was going to be hard to hang out with Nash and not let it slip at the wrong time.

"I dont know maybe." I admitted, looking out the window. We were halfway to his place already.

"You did. Because you kissed him back and you lik- no, you loved it." Said Nash.

How does he do that?

"Ok maybe I did! So what! What does it even matter?" I said getting defensive. "I like girls! What happened with Taylor was just a... A mistake." My heart broke a little when I said that. "Ok? It wasn't meant to happen."

"Ok, ok, jeez, you don't have to bite my head off." Nash said. He took his hands off the steering wheel and held them up in surrender.

I smiled, thinking of Taylor.

"You love him." Nash stated flatly. I rolled my eyes.

"I like girls."

"Stop telling yourself that. You think you like girls, but you don't. You like Taylor."

"No! I'm not gay! I dated Miley!" I protested.

"But people change and she ran off with that other guy and you ran off to Taylor. You had a change of heart. You just haven't realised it yet." Nash said calmly. We pulled into his drive way.

I looked at him, but he avoided eye contact.

"But for the record," He finished off. "I would totally be ok with it if you and Taylor dated." He said. I felt my mouth hang open.

What he said wasn't that bad. It's just the way he said it. He said it like it was nothing. Like he said it every single day.

"Have you already thought about this?" I asked.

Nash looked at me and nodded. I smiled at the ground and shook my head in disbelief.

"You're a weird ass kid, you know that?" I asked. Nash smiled and his light blue eyes lit up.

"Yeah I know. Oh, and Jade is coming over." He said. He opened the door and let us in.

Jade was... Well, she was Nash's hoe. They only hung out when Nash wanted something like sex. Jade was surprisingly popular in school though. She was Cameron's ex. But other than sex, Nash hatted her.

I groaned. "What about bro time?" I whined. Nash rolled his eyes.

"Grow up." He said with a smile.

"So don't you have to go pick her up?" I asked.

"Psh, fuck that. That hoe is getting dropped off here." Nash said. He hated having to do anything for or with Jade.

He ran his fingers through his hair a couple times.

Nash was absolutely obsessed with his hair. It was weird.

I lounged on the couch and flipped through the channels on the flat screen.

The door bell rang and Nash jumped up to get it. He walked slowly to the door.

"Don't want her to actually think I care." Nash sided to me. I shook my head.

"Nash!" Jade squeaked as he opened the door.

"Whatever. Let's make it quick." I heard Nash say. There was no emotion in his voice. Nash walked past the room that I was in. Jade was holding onto his arm. She saw me.

"Hey buddy." She said to me. One thing about Jade was that she was rude and mean. So I didn't like to talk to her. I didn't look at her, but instead turned up the TV.

Nash pulled his arm up, making her trip past the room. I silently laughed.

Dumb bitch.

I heard Nash push her into a room and shut and lock the door. After about five minutes, I could hear them going at it. I rolled my eyes and stood up.

I walked outside to Nash's pond.

I just need to clear my head.