Falling Slow / Oh Sehun

I Changed

It's been a long time since it all happened and I'm not the same girl I used to be.
I became distant from the people who cared for me.
And that includes him.
We grew up and have our own lives now.
He's now a famous idol and here I am stuck in this hell hole.
But not a day passed by that I don't think about him or missed him.

I missed him dearly but I'm the one who pushed him away.
So I don't have the right to miss him.
I listened to his songs and every time his line came.
My heart would skip a beat and tears would fall without my consent.
I lost my bestfriend and the love of my life forever.

I didn't have the chance to tell him how much I love him.
Every time I saw his face on billboards or magazines. I would secretly whisper to myself.
"I miss and love you Sehun."
I want to fall for him but I don't want to. I'm going to ruin him and I would hate myself for it.

                                    -TheGirlHeLove