Saving Kat

A Note

I know I know, it's actually been forever. Things have changed for me so much. About a year ago, I was finally forced into getting serious help for me problems. After going to the doctor numerous times, I've come to find out that I have severe bipolar depression and a minute cause of schizophrenia, a long with major anxiety disorder.

My mother finally forced me to get some help after she overheard me talking about trying to hang myself. I guess the sadness that I had noticed in my moms eyes that day kind of made it a little real to me that some people really would care if I weren't here anymore. I haven't talk to Carter. Or Brandon. But within the last year, a lot of good things happened as well.

Like for one, I finally graduated from high school last June. That night, I also met someone who has literally changed my life forever. His name is justin. And we've been together for almost a year.

I will be the first person to tell you guys straight up, dealing with self harm and suicidal thoughts is still something I deal with every single day. I still find myself slipping up and going straight for my blade. Because that was simply the only thing that could comfort me whenever I was hurting. I may feel so good and happy during the days, but it's a night when everything is dark and I'm completely alone that get really hard for me.

But when I get like that, I get on here. And i start talking to you amazing people. I start writing. Just anything and everything that is going through my mind. Even if I don't end up posting it because it's way to deep or if I do post it and no one even reads it. Writing is an amazing way to help you get out some of your emotions.

Also, please please remember that I am always here. I know when I get in my really bad moments, the most important thing is knowing that there is someone I can turn and talk to. Someone to vent to no matter what time it is or where I am at. I will ALWAYS answer you all. I love you beautiful people so so much.

Stay Strong.

Kat.