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💝kim taehyung: too late💝

here i am kneeling down in front of your grave. your smile. its so beautiful... your last words were so hurting.. but i deserved it.
depression.. its not a short term illness. if you think you are cured within one hour, you're either thinking too positively or you dont really have depression. indeed, at the first hour, you will be happy and thinking everything is going to be okay.. but the next moment before you know it, you're crying and regret being alive. you feel its tiring to even live. you will alawys have suicidal thoughts, you would always feel tired of everything and even little hurtful words hurts you to the max.
Your pov:
*BEEP BEEP BEEP*
shit. its time for school again as you sat up at your bedside. i didnt even sleep today. its already the 3rd day and till now its still like this. you thought to yourself as you popped in a medicine that can calm down your emotions and it is a must to have it every 8 hours otherwise you will lose control of your feelings and what you do.i hate going to school. i get nothing but hated for nothing. well maybe not nothing. im the teacher's pet. I score straight A's, try to always get out of trouble, tuck in my PE T-shirt and wear big glasses. if you dont know by now, im a school nerd. I always get bullied and pushed around for no reasons except being hardworking and smart. Those who bully me are usually girls but they arent the worst. they usually just ask me to do their homework, help them to take things or make fun of me and nothing much. but the worst is the queeka group and their boyfrieds. they have 7 members in the queenka group and all except one had boyfriends and all their boyfriends were from a group called BTS or aka Bangtan. They used to be nice to me until i did a wrong move and this happend. The reason why they bullied me was.. well i confessed to one of the members that i liked him. Now, he bullies me the most and obviously, i got rejected.His name Kim Taehyung. He is the hottest boy in my school. Many girls love him and have a crush on him like i do... i mean who wouldnt? he is such a perfect boy. Perfect shining and beautiful eyes, deep voice, quiet, perfect face feature and he used to be so nice to me until i confessed. The bullying of them and everyone plus my family abuse where i get hit everyday caused me to have depression. Having to eat medicine everyday and just to think about it makes me sick. i even have to eat sleeping pills that doesnt work for me to make the chances of sleeping higher. for some reason, i couldnt sleep today but my body feels extremely tired. I ignored that fact, changed, brushed my teeth, tied up my hair into a tight ponytail with my fringe pinned back, took my bag and left the house. I wasnt surprised to be welcomed by silence and cold air. i left my house a few months before and on the day i confessed to Taehyung. School was a short distance away from my house and only took me 10 minutes to walk there. when i reached the school, i was obviously welcomed by disgusted looks and sarcasm like:
"ew shes so ugly"
"what a slut. disgusting."
"lmao why would she confess to taehyung? its not like he would like such an ugly bitch."
yes. even the whole school knows about it as i confessed to him in school....
**flashback**
I saw many girls trying to get taehyung's attention by talking to him, unbottoning their shirt more to show more of their bossom and twirling their hair. today was the day. the day im going to confess to taehyung and live an amazing life with him. Why was i willing to do so? well my friend told me he liked me too! i finally pushed my way through with a rose and a letter in my hand.
"h... hi ta... taehyung" as he turned around and gave you his signature retangular smile.
"ahh hey y/n!" OMG HE NOTICED ME as you blushed and many girls gave you disgusted looks.
"th... th... this... this is for you!" as you handed the rose and letter. he gave you a weird look but opened the letter and more girls crowded to see. "girls. can i have some privacy and can you all move away? all except y/n" every girl gave you one last disgusted look and left. he started reading the letter when suddenly, someone snatched the paper away. e/n(enemy name) aka the queenka of the school. many guys liked her too and she slept with many of them but she said that she likes taehyung too.... "Wow Wow Wow. What do we have here? a love letter to MY taehyung? let me read it for you love." as she looked at taehyung.
"Oh? it writes here : Dear Tae, i hope you dont mind me calling you that. Im Kim Y/n if you remember. Today im writing this to you to let you know that i feel your so handsome, charming and beautiful. i really love everything of you. how you laugh, smile and even focus. i love them all. Most importantly, HERES THE MOST IMPORTANT PART OF THE LETTER YALL!" as she read out loud and you felt extremely embarrased. "most importantly, taehyung, i love you. to the moon and back. will you be mine?" as you felt the whole school laugh at you."TRY HARDER BITCH.MY MAN WOULD NEVER LOVE YOU. Right Taehyung?" she said whereas taehyung just stood there looking shocked. feeling embarrased, you quicly stood up and ran away from the laughing crowd and into the toilet and cried my heart out and thats when my depression developed as i took out a penknife and slut my wrist one deep time. after so, it became a habit that i do it everyday. i decided to finally get some help as im starting to feel the scars look ugly and got it when i visited my consultant. she isnt the best neither is she that bad.
**back to reality**
i rolled my eyes and tried to walk as quickly as possible to my class when i bumped into someone. "im sorry" a familiar deep sexy voice said to me. you look up to see Taehyung reaching out his hand wanting to help you up. you were about to accept the offer but then someone pushed his hand away. e/n. "YAH pabo! you bumped into my boyfriend you idiot! are u blind or are those glasses not thick enough for you?!" as she turned and tried to touch taehyung but he smacked her hand away. "stop. im fine. its my fault. i bumped into her. it has nothing to do with her." she seem to ignore him and continued to say, "WHAT IF U HIT HIM TOO HARD AND HE HAS TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL? ARE U GOING TO PAY? EVEN IF YOURE RICH YOU CANT EVEN PAY!!" e/n screamed at your face. "I SAID STOP. WHY DO YOU HAVE TO OVER EXAGGERATE EVERYTHING?! DONT YOU KNOW HOW ANNOYING YOU ARE?" taehyung shouted back. all of us stood shocked as taehyung shouted back to the queenka. "i.. i was just worried oppa..." "I DONT NEED IT. NOW LEAVE." and e/n gave you one last death glare and walked off. "you okay?" taehyung asked as he helped you up. "y.. yes..thank you. i gotta go now." you replied and quickly ran off blushing... he helped me.. i heard someone shouting for my name but you kept running as you were afraid it was e/n's minions and her boyfriend.
*AFTER A FEW HOURS*
"RINGGGG"
Finally. Recess break. i walked towards the toilet to freshen up but to be pulled away into a classroom by force. "LET ME GO. HEY? I SAID LET ME GO!" as you turned and saw your worst nightmare. E/n, her minions and their boyfriends.
"w.. wh... what do you want?" you asked as e/n purely smiled to you and said, "revenge bitch. because of you oppa scolded me!" "you deserved it bitch." you spat back.. finally... you were daring enough to retaliate. "HOW DARE YOU. BOYS, BEAT HER UP." "are.. are you sure?... shes a girl..." a cute boy named Jimin said. "SO? I SAID BEAT HER UP!" as they slowly approached you and beat you up on the stomach, slap your face, kicking your legs until you fell on the floor and spat blood. "sh... shit... THIS... THIS IS WHAT YOU DESERVE. NE.. NEXT TIME IT WILL BE WORST!" e/n said as they all ran away. after 10 minutes you were finally able to stand up. you walked back to class without knowing youre bleeding everywhere with scars and blueblacks. You sat in class and waited for the teacher to come. To your surprise, instead of a teacher, someone came up to you and gave you a tissue. taehyung. "what happend?" he asked looking very concerned and helped you with your wound when suddenly e/n came in. "OPPA! WHY ARE U HELPING HER? DID YOU KNOW SHE HIT ME? LOOK AT THIS BRUISE ON MY FACE. SHE DID THIS TO ME BECAUSE SHE KNOWS YOU LIKE ME!" as all her minions nodded in agreement. "i.. is this true y/n?" taehyung asked. your mind went blank.. you were innocent.. "if i said no, would you believe it? no. you wont. so might as well i say yes." as a hand flew to your face. taehyung slapped you. "y/... y/n im sorry.. i .. i d.. i didnt mean it." as you looked at him in anger and ran off. you kept running until you ran to the rooftop and cried your heart out. your crush slapped you when you were innocent... after a while, you stood at the edge and breathed in the fresh air when the door slammed open and revealed someone you would never want to see. Taehyung.
"Y/N! PLS COME DOWN. DONT DO IT. PLS Y/N! I WAS WRONG. IM SORRY"
"for what. shes right. i deserved it. you didnt love me. i was just overthinking. thank you taehyung. you made me wake up and now... youre gonna make me free and lastly, i hate you and regret meeting you. maybe in our next lives, we would be destined." as you closed your eyes and moved yourself foward and with a bang, you were covered in darkness.....
Taehyung pov:
"NOOO Y/N." i tried to pull her back. im too late. far too late. her desd body. on the floor covered with blood. i ran down, held her tight and cried my heart out. i shouldnt have slapped her. but only if she listened to me in recess, i wouldnt have been so pissed.. after i slapped her, bangtan, my group of bestfriends, came in and told me the truth. it was e/n. not her. she was the one who got hit up. the only reason why e/n had the marks of bruise is because she asked Seokjin to do it to make me hate y/n and i did.. im so dumb. after a few days, y/n funeral was done by me(pretend he is very rich) and her grave was done. thats not all. im done with my mission too and now here i am kneeling down in front of your grave. your smile. its so beautiful... your last words were so hurting, so soft.. but i deserved it. as i smiled to your beatiful photo on your grave. "y/n ah. i love you. if only you turned back on the day you bumped into me. i wanted to confess and accept your confession when you confessed to me on that day. but that slut e/n had to mess it up. im sorry. im so sorry. but dont worry sweetie. ive done it. i killed e/n in the most torturing way. now, im coming to find you and finally leave happily together. i love you. wait for me my love. im coming." as i pulled out the gun, put it to my head, smiled one last time and pulled the trigger.....

3rd person pov:
little did anyone know... taehyung was suffering from severe depression too. the only reason why he decided to stay alive was for y/n. her smile made him feel happy and she was the only reason why he was till here. but now that y/n left, its time for him to leave too....

🌻author note🌻
AYE HOW WAS IT? 2138 WORDS OMG BUT I LOVE YALL LOTS! side note. this is not making fun of depression. its the truth. i love yall lots! so sorry for the late update but muacks!
lots of love,
Mrs KimPark❤
@ bangtanbambamboom