The Omega

prologue

His harsh voice continues to echo through my head as I sit on the bed. "You make me wish rejection were possible" "sometimes I wish I could kill you" I am truly alone here, no matter how kind they may seem, they will always take the side of the alpha.

No matter what, I will always come second. Which means I can never truly trust anyone here. If I spilled my deepest secrets to someone and the alpha ordered them to tell him, then my secrets would be thrown into the open.

Standing up from my seat, I walk across the room on shaky legs.

Testing the door, I see it's still unlocked and slide the deadbolt home.

Then, I push a heavy wardrobe against the door and make my way to the small window seat overlooking the pack lands.

It's so high up, there is little to no chance of me climbing down. So, I lean back against the wall and push open the window.

The breaze isn't so much cold as chilly but I gladly embrace the stunning draft to the warm stuffy room.

For the first time since I got here, I can actually breathe. Inhaling deeply, I close my eyes and begin to rock back and forth.

Words come slowly to my mind, mixing in and out with the events of the last few days.

I sing a sad song.

A song about pain and sorrow.

A song of memories.

A song of the past.

As I continue, my tone becomes lighter, my words taking on a more hopeful quality as I remember the joy of finding my mate.

But then, suddenly, it darkens again as I feel the pain and anger of an unloving other half.

I sing until my voice grows hoarse and the wind is so bitingly cold that my skin feels as though is burning off.

I sing until the sun begins to set and I'm lightheaded from the lack of oxygen reaching my brain.

Only then, do I lean out the window and look out over the pack.

I stand there for several minutes, my arms stretched out from my sides, my head tilted up to the sky, and I just breath.

At this moment, I don't know whether to jump or to let my body fall backwards into the room.

At this moment, the whole world is silent, nothing is separating from the sky but a small ledge and my own inhibitions.

But then a shout breaks through my calm.

It's deep and male and pleading for me to stop.

And then there's pounding footsteps and screaming.

Why can't they go away?

Why can't I go back to my peace?

Then there's pounding on my door and the walls are shaking and I can here his screams as he pleads for me to wait.

But what if I don't want to? What if I don't want to wait?

I blink my eyes several times before closing them. How did I get here? How did all of this start? It only takes me a second to realize that I am here because of my mate.

Then I let my body go limp and let fate decide which way my body will fall.