It was never easy
It was never a big deal
It was never something I paid thoughts into it.
Over the years I never noticed how important you might be one day.
Over the years I never recognized your influence.
Not everything you have done is bad and not everything you said was intentionally hurting me. You did alot of memorizable stuff towards me and I've never noticed it.
Your harsh words
Your kind words
Your poison on my neck
Your shadow infront of my sun
All the time, when you were there, I thought I'll be okay. I'll be normal. I'll be someone.
But you decided to give me all the negativity clinging onto my thoughts.
You threw me into a pitch black Sea.
You watched me drown
And I sank..
Deeper...
And deeper..
Till I hit the darkest point of the ground.
Your words, your actions, your love.
Those are the three components holding me on the ground of this pitch black Sea
And all I can see
Is something leaving my body.
I can't recognize nor categorize it.
All I feel it's this terrible cold around me.
