"We're Gonna Be Alright"

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Maybe they're looking for me. Maybe they care...

No. There's no way Daniel cares about me. My mom...no way. So i guess i am okay with flying to London tomorrow.
Jason said we'll be travelling around the world for a few months. I like that idea.

"Are you ready?" , his voice is quiet.

He's back. He went to say his goodbyes to his parents.

"Yeah..i've packed my clothes and stuff."

"Cool."

I think he's sad he's leaving his family. I know this is all my fault and i shouldn't let him do this just for me. I don't deserve it.

"I am so sorry."

It just goes out of my lips without realising.

"For what? There's nothing to be sorry for Ari."

Ari? No one never has called me that.

"Of course it is. You're leaving your hometown and your parents for me."

He looks at me. His gaze is burning me. Why is he looking at me like that?

"You're too important to apologize."

My heart stops. Am i really so important to him? Does he really want so bad to heal me from drugs and my dark past?

"But i..."

"No. You have nothing to be sorry about. Stop blaming yourself. This my desicion."

"Do you really wanna help me so bad with my addiction?"

He smiles. He crosses the room to get right in front of me.

He leans in and tries to touch my face. I don't move. I am too scared. He wouldn't...

"I am sorry." he says as he steps away from me.

I breathe out. I would like him to caress me, maybe in the future but it'll hurt ,so better this way. I would like to feel loved. Cared for.

"It's okay. Just...just try to keep your hands to yourself." i say with a smile.

My joke is a fail. His smile fades away.

"What is wrong? I just can't stand any touching, you know that."

Did i do something wrong?

"Nothing yet. I am just thinking...if by the end of my healing your fear to be touched hasn't gone...i will have failed my mission."

"Why? Your mission is not to make me a normal person."

"Of course it is. I want to heal you, with any way i can."

This boy really cares about me...

"You won't fail. I'll want you to touch me. I...i promise."

I promise? What did i just say? I know i can't face this fear. It's too much.

"Really?" he says unsure.

"I don't know."

We both look at the floor.

This is going to be hard for both of us.