Shaadi: Ek Atoot Bandan

Chapter-15

From the beginning of my life- means when I got to know I'm my ownself that I don't have anyone to take care of me ;to love me ;to care me- I automatically build up a wall around me.
As my life goes on I try my best to make that wall strong enough to protect me.

But by arrival of certain persons they made a crack in that wall and squeeze in my life as my friends.And today I happy that happend and the person in my life.If I put it in normal words
"Friends" are the only family and loved one in my life.

Ritwik,Saurav,Jatin are some of them who mean to me at a certain level.

So In my life If I give value or trust in any relation its only friendship.And I promised to myself that I would do anything and everything in my control to keep this relation to my till end.

So the friendship I have with Ritwik far more than important.
As now I get to know His feelings for me changed and I'm certainly not ready to feel those feelings towards him in case to anyone.
I don't know how to convey this to him and how to brought this in our conversation.

I'm getting somewhat nervousness thinking how he got to react once I official reject him and his feelings or Whether we could go through that awkwardnes in the air after I told him everything.
Clearly I'm messing my mind by confusing it thinking about every consequences of this situation.

I still can hear the loud music and my friend's laughing in downstairs of our house.
Its been almost 11 and the party was still goes on with they playing differnt games,dancing and all.

As promised Jatin showed up but little late.As of punishment Ele make him stay here untill party ends.and as expected others welcome him as they all know him long time ago like old friend.

After all drama with marriage and her dad Payal and her husband Rohan and some other friends from our class.When my friends decided to throw party for me and Ele I excepted a simple and small as we used to do.May be today's not one of that party.I still wonder how they organised it in small amount of time.

When I know I can't be there more than one minute after I spent 5 continuous hour sitting and playing their "funny games" I narrowingly escaped from there and now I'm chilling in my room with myself and my thoughts...

"Penny to your thoughts.."
A familiar amused tone brought back me from my thoughts.
I didn't want to turn to see him as he comes and sit beside me in the couch I have in my room.

"So whats that in your brain.?"
He asked again cautionsly and bit curiously.

By giving him a small smile I shook my head no.
"Nothing As usual stuffs."

"And whats that stuff be.??"
He asked again.

"Ritwik-"
I took a long breath and turn to see him and he already looking at me with a frown.
Before I could complete What I'm detaing to say to him till now He interrupted me without looking at me.

"I know what make you think complicating...Sonakshi..."
He leave a long sign and look at me with full honesty he completed.

"I like you"

Staring him is the only thing I could do.Accepting the fact that he have feelings for me was somewhat difficult to me.
But now When he confessed infront me I really don't know how to handle this sitaution.

And it hurt me when he give me a sad smile as He know What I'm going through and He know what I would say.He continued

"But sonakshi the friendship which we have is more imporatant than my stupid feelings ever.."

I simply looking at him dumbfodlly is he seriously ???

"Sona listen"
He move close to me and took my hands in his and give me a serious look means he saying things which is nothing but honest.

"I like you but I love my Best friend Sona...And I can't never ever loose her for anything...So don't make it more complicate and let it be..."

"But I can't I mean how would you..-"

"Sona Its just I may had feeling for you like someone have infactuation or crush which would have in our school life but its just that happened to me in my college life thats it..So don't worry its not like my love life is ending or anything..."
I noded him when I understand his point..

"and there might be some fresh flower waiting for me in my basket.."
He said with a playful grin and wink for a second I couldn't get it but when I understanding my eyes widen.

"No way...Who when how shit You kept this secret from us you idiot."
I punched his arm in a small frown which may hurt him he immediately start rub that area.

"Damn you You are still hard enough to give me hurt even after rejecting my feelings."
He said as offended.

"Piss off Mr.Secretive Now you have 2 minutes to confess truth about your "fresh flower in basket".
I sternelly said to him by crossing my arms in my chest.

He frown a little and took a deep breath.

"Not now and definetly not here."
He replied as looking here and there.I narrowed my gaze at him as explain.

"Look Sona the stuff is somewhat complicated and I'm not sure about revealing it to others.."

Even his words little offended me but I nodded my head as understanding him.

"Are you sure You would be happy this girl.?"
I asked him concernly have feelings or not he is my best friend and protecting him and his happiness is my priority as being his friend.

"Ofcourse..."
He grins as streching his mouth from one ear to another like he get to tell about something which he admire.

"Even Seeing her I don't know I feel something which I never feel before."
He completed with a confused but still his smile is there.
Immediately I give a tight bear hug which he immediately accepted with a little laugh.

"Good."
I said once I pulled away from him.I feel some weight being carried out from my shoulder.

"Thank you Ritwik you know You mean alot to me..This our friendship means alot to me I don't know how to tell you this all But like always You got me there..."
I give him a meaningful smile.

"Its ok Sona infact is my responsibility to make it all clear to you even before make many more complications...Already all our friends knew about I have towards you So its my responsibility to make it clear as well.."
I nodded my head

"By the way Congratulations.And As always you made me proud of you."
He give me one more hug with a proud smile.

"Thank you."
I replied when he pull away from me.

"You both Mr.&Ms.Sneaky I will give you 5 damn minutes to finish up whatever shit you both are doing there and show up here before I drag both you to here.."
Ele shouted from the downstairs..

when did the loud music turned off...???