Im in love with a jerk { A Larry Stylinson Teen Fiction Story}

Chapter 4: Change In myself

after my mom had told me that Louis killed himself because of me i really wanted to do something about it but i knew i couldn't cause it had already happened and the doctors couldn't save him and he is up in heaven now  i had promised Louis i would change for him no matter if he is in heaven now or not i still promised Louis i would change for him and that is what i am going to do for him so everyday i had went to my anger management classes cause the doctor had told me it wasn't depression of which i thought it was my behavior of treating Louis like crap just came from A lot of anger in me and i needed to work on that so everyday i went to my anger management classes and they taught me how to cope with my anger and how i can do other things when i feel angry  it was really helpful i actually learned from it A lot 

i had lived with my mom since i didn't have Louis in my life anymore but i still kinda felt i still had him in my memories and in my heart

" hey mom i'm back from anger management classes" harry said with a smile on his face

"hey sweetie how was it???" harry's mom said 

" it was good i learned A lot at class today" harry said 

" good what did you learn" harry's mom said

" well i learned instead of getting mad about something i don't need to get mad about i can just either walk away from the situation , or i can just talk to the person i'm getting mad at calmly and figure out what is bothering them" harry said 

" see that is true " harry's mom said 

After getting back home from anger management classes I saw a picture of Louis just sitting around I picked it up and I looked at it for alittle " oh Louis why in the world did you have to do this ????" Harry said talking to himself

" I don't think that is a good idea harry looking at a photo of Louis will remind you of all those bad memories you had with them" Harry's mom said

" Yeah but it wasn't even his fault " Harry said

" I just miss him so much , I love him !!!! " Harry said starting to cry

" And I'm pretty sure Louis loved you very much and he very much misses you as of right now ! " Harry's mom said

" He didn't deserve to do die not like this , if anything it should be me up there not Louis !" Harry said

" HARRY!!!! Don't talk like that !!!! Your talking crazy!!!! " Harry's mom said freaking out

" Well I'm just being honest " Harry said

" Well nothing I don't wanna see you die I know it's hard on you cause you miss louis very much and I understand that but you don't have to sit there and say to your mother that you want to die and rather be up there with Louis then be down here with your mother" harrys mom said

" Maybe your right , maybe I do need help ! " Harry said

" Uhhh yeah you do I've been trying to tell you this for like a week now !!! " Harry's mom said

" Well I'm sorry I didn't listen when I needed to " harry said