Strong [Meghan Trainor]

Chapter 2

    It all was so shocking to me, I couldn't be strong through the whole thing.  I mean, I was like, whoa, did that really just happen to me? And as a response I... you know. Here's how it happened:

    I just got done with a long science test and I was at my locked gathering my history things. Then, out of nowhere, my ULTIMATE crush came up to me. Alex.  Like, the biggest crush I've ever had before. The worst part? I was so awkward when he did.

    "Hey, Meghan," Alex started. JoJo nudged me and walked away to let us talk in private. I'm sure he was thinking he'd say something sweet. And it seemed to be going that way... at first.  "What class do you have next?"

    "Uh... I got math, I think. Nope! I got history... actually." He shot me a sideways look. "Haha. I'm just so tired still. You know?" I literally couldn't focus on anything but his perfect hair. Why did he have to be so darn cute?

    He half-smiled and slowly nodded. "Uh, sure, I guess. I was going to ask you what you got on the math homework last night."

    Wow. All of this. About math homework. Still, I gave my piece of paper to him. "Thanks. I'll give it to you during lunch, alright?" I nodded. Just before he left, he added, "You know, Meghan, you would actually be really pretty if you dropped about 20 pounds." And, with that, he walked away.

    I couldn't believe my own ears. He called me pretty. Really pretty. But he told me to lose weight? That's not right. That can't be. He can't just say that about a girl.  

    I told JoJo after history. She was mad. Real mad.  She didn't even acknowledge the fact that he called me beautiful, but she simply jumped to the conclusion that he was a jerk. I mean, it was fair, I guess, but I couldn't bring myself to get over the fact that he actually called me pretty. Well, sort of. It was close enough.

    "Meghan, you could do so much better, girl. Get over that jerk. He doesn't deserve you, okay?" JoJo reassured me. I blinked back tears and nodded back.

    "Uh... I'll meet you at lunch, alright? I have to go to the bathroom first."

    JoJo smiled. "Sure. See ya there!"

    I went to the bathroom an took the contents out of my lunch and threw them away. Just before I walked out of the bathroom I took a good look at myself in the mirror.  For the first time, I didn't like the girl I saw. I wasn't proud, I wasn't confident.  I suddenly felt self-conscious, and I the thought of being at school for a minute longer made me sick. 

    Without even telling JoJo, I called my mom and she came and picked me up.  She did so immediately, and of course, asked what was wrong.  I told her I didn't feel so hot, and so she let me stay home.

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    While lying in my bed pretending to be sick, JoJo texted me.

    This texting conversation scared me. Of course it was about Alex. You can't simply ignore something huge that happened with your ultimate crush since grade school. That's just not how it works. 

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    The next morning, I slept in until 10:30ish (as usual) and skipped breakfast since it was late anyway. When I finally got out of my bed at 12:08, I was starving. But then, I thought about what happened with Alex the previous day. Flashbacks invited themselves to my head. 

    Meghan, you would be really pretty if you dropped about 20 pounds.

    That's basically calling me... fat... right? I mean, it's the not-so-blunt way of saying I am overweight, but his words slapped me hard in the face all the same.

    My mom came in from outside in the back, watering the flowers. "Well good morning, sleeping beauty! Want some early lunch?" She said sweetly.

    I wanted to say yes. I wanted to so bad. Instead, what came out of my mouth was, "Uh... I'm actually not really that hungry. Thanks, though."

    My mom tilted her head. "You sure? You can have leftover spaghetti... or I can fix you a sandwich... or I believe we have some pizza left..."

    "Mom, no, I said I wasn't hungry. Drop it, okay?"

    "Oh... okay. Just tell me if you change your mind, I guess." She walked back outside.

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    Back in my room, I thought about everything. Was I really having an eating disorder? This isn't good. My stomache growled again. The clock read 3:42. To say I was starving was an understatement.

    I couldn't take it anymore. I walked into the kitchen in tears. "Mom... please make me a sandwich." 

Hey guys! I hoped you like this chapter.  I know it's been like FOREVER since I came out with a new chapter of any of my stories, so here ya go <3 

Alright, so I wanna speak to you about this chapter. First of all, I want to mention that you all are beautiful on the inside and out, but the inside is what matters the most. You may hear that a lot, but PLEASE know that. Your weight doesn't define you, so don't let it take over who you are. More people die every day from anorexia (and other eating disorders). Don't be one of those people. ALSO, I would like to discuss that one interview when Megh revealed the truth about her going on anorexia. Drama started afterward because Meghan said "I wasn't strong enough" in her interview. I personally think that it is ridiculous that people would take offense to that. She meant that in a way she couldn't find it in herself to not eat for a long period of time, NOT that she believed that she should have continued with anorexia. No hate to Demi Lovato at all, but why would you spread drama about someone who you once considered your friend. Again, I know this is all old news, but I wanted to share my opinion :)

Keep killing it MTrain and you are amazing 😍😍😍

@NonyaBusiness04 hi. ur amazing. 

❓❕ POLL: Who are your first, second, and third favorite artists ❓❕

SONG: Nervous 💙 It's amazing. I love old-school Meghan.

ALL THE WAYS IS A BOP U GUYSSSSS

Anyways I can't wait for Treat Myself  (:

Byeeeee