What Now

Midnight ramblings

This book is more like a compilation of short stories I think of at night as I reflect on our life, Billy's and mine. I'm not a writer. This probably will have too many grammatical and spelling errors for some. Politely let me know so I can fix them. Heck if i need more detail somewhere tell me, in my head I probably just filled in that hole. As we get into the part of the story of Billy's treatment, I will be sharing posts I shared at the time, and maybe a few thoughts I filtered out to protect feelings, or felt like I was jinxing something if I typed a thought aloud.

I'm not a therapist, there isn't the "right" way, this is just our story, and mostly I don't regret the decisions I've made. If I don't mention you by name it's not a slight, I swear. There's just too much to get out of my head. So much good, so much bad.

I promised Billy he wouldn't be forgotten, and this is my attempt at making good. This is my way of telling another mom I might not know, this is our normal. It is my hope that this might help, help you help another family or help you help yourself. Remember though, we are all just trying to live, there is no right way.