FRIENDS || LEON GORETZKA ✔

Chapter 5

September 2017

Her name is Cecilia Brandt, she and Max are neighbors and childhood friends. Cecilia moved to England for her study, she had been lived by her own since she was sixteen years old, she moved to Berlin to finished her college before come back home to Gelsenkirchen after graduation.

And even though we're not officially meet yet, it felt like she's already part of us right now, thanks to Leon who couldn't stop to talk about her anytime which I stupidly listened that no matter it hurts my heart a little.

I don't know how to describe this little feeling that crept into my heart, is it only a jealousy because your best friend since childhood suddenly so enthusiastically talking about someone else who has a bigger opportunity to replace your position and maybe turn his whole world around, am I just afraid that he might be forget about me because of Cecilia?

I don't have to worry if the feeling is just about that, right?

The point is, I don't like it at all, the way he talked about Cecilia, or when he just texted me to asked me an opinion about how he should replied her texted. All I can tell is that he's madly about her, until there's no room left for me in his heart.

I don't like it, and strangely, I never felt this feeling before when he started dating anyone. Why is it different now? Is it because the girl, or something else?

Leon sent me a picture through a chatting application, he was putting his arm around a beautiful girl with 'I manage to ask her out' below.

I felt my heart sinking that time, and grudgingly answered 'wow, when exactly I could officially meet her?' however deep inside I wasn't really looking forward to it.

'Soon.' He answered quickly, I exhaustedly sighed.

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And there he was, table at the corner of our favorite café along with Max and a girl which I was one hundred percent sure she is Cecilia. He waved his hand soon he saw me entering the door. I stepped forward to say hello to all of them.

"I forced Max to come with us so we didn't look like a third wheel." Leon said after I get closer.

"That's very nice of you." I said, one hundred percent of sarcasm.

"Yeah, and I like free ice cream." Max smiled unintentionally.

Leon smiled. "So, yeah, Cecilia, Liz, Liz, Cecilia." He said, introducing us.

"Hi, I really can't wait to see you, Leon told me so much about you, it felt like we've been already known each other." She stretched her hand and I grabbed her.

My lips curled up. "Yeah, so am I."

The conversation that happened among the four of us next is the living proof why is Leon so madly in love with this girl? Cecilia is attractive. She's funny, lovable and cheerful unlike his previous girlfriends who always tried to sabotage him from his friends. Cecilia even said that she can't wait to meet Leon other friends. She's the type of girl who easy to be friend with anyone.

"Try this one." Leon forked a piece of powdered doughnut and asked her to open her mouth.

"What? That's silly." She said sheepishly.

"Oh, come on, we're officially dating right now, just let me to act like your boyfriend for this time." When he said that, he was acting like a little sweet spoiled boy and I swear if I wasn't dealing with my own feeling, I would mock him for eternity.

She scoffed, "you are my boyfriend."

"So?" He didn't give up until Cecilia eats that piece of powdered doughnut.

She exhaled, so done with whatever Leon wants and opened her mouth. "Satisfied?" she said, with mouthful of powdered doughnut while Leon laughed at her.

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"We'll watch a movie after this. You guys are coming with us, right?" She said.

"Oh, I really want to, but I can't." I directly refused. All I want is to disappear from their sight. I don't know why?

"Why?" Now Leon asked.

"There's some assignment I need to work and the deadline is tomorrow." I winced while seeking for reasons, hoping my lie was undetected.

"I'll give her ride home." Max offered which I deeply thanks to him inside my heart.

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All the way home with Max, I choose to shut my mouth and looked at the scenery outside. Luckily, Max maybe felt the same way too because he didn't say anything since we're inside his car. I didn't mean that I don't want to talk to Max, but I just didn't want to talk at all this time.

"Is it hurt?" Max breaks a silence between us.

I glanced to him. "Sorry?" I probably misheard about what he asked.

He smiled. "To see Leon with Cecilia, just wait until the other find out about this." He sighed. "Look, I care about Cecilia, she's like a sister to me and I hope they give her kind welcome however I also feel slight disappointed that L-couple is not going to happen." He said, referring 'they' as our friends.

I laughed, or more likely I force myself to laugh. "Don't be silly."

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Max said goodbye right after we're arrived at the front of my house, thank God cause I don't really need to offered him to drop by because truthfully, I didn't want to. All I need this time is go upstairs to my room and locked myself up. I just need some time to be left alone.

I walked closer to my bed and sat on it before I heavily breath in and out as like I was holding it since long time until it make me felt suffocated.

And out of nowhere, the tears streamed down on my cheek uncontrollably, like I have no power to stop them.

I let out a soft sob.