days awake

Three

Wished on everything.

Wished on a sky.

Wished on a star.

If I could possibly make a wish I did.

Today was the 28th day of Jungkook's departure. Leaving 34 days left. It also meant I would be getting mail today. A letter from Kookie.

I sat in the living room, remote in hand as I flipped though the channels hoping to find something to watch. Any thing.

The house was silent and at times I just let the tv play at night to make up for the missing person in my life.

I hated having money left over as well.

So I always put money aside in a Bunny Bank. A bank for rainy days when Jungkook returns.

I work more. Sleep more. Eat more. Anything to fill the spots of nothing. My only other option was Jimin but him and Yoongi where going through hard times and Seokjin Hyung went to America to visit his boyfriend who's attending Yale.

I looked for a pillow to make it the little spoon, and began to drift off only to hear the door bell ring.

"Who is it?"

"Mail!" The man called back and smiled as I opened the door.

"Thank you." I bowed taking the baby blue envelope with a bunny and carrot on it.

I made sure to open it gently, not to rip the envelope or the contents completely and took out a white sheet of lined paper and 3 smaller ones.

After much debate I opted on the small papers first.

They were simple picture of him, hair was shaved off, but bunny smile still there. Another he was sleeping with a water bottle balancing on his forehead. Probably done by Hoseokie Hyung, one of his friends. And the last was of a small boy who was jumping in a hopscotch, handwriting being a perfect match to Jungkook's.

Then I opened the letter.

Dear Taehyung,

It's 4:13 am and I'm only awake because our site got raided. We got bombed- lost 2 men and supplies were stolen. I think it was a pirate. [stop reading and tell me about your day] "ahah." I laugh a bit at his stupidity "I didn't do much beside eat and sleep. I talked to Yixing on the phone and he helped me with my Chinese essay for next semester. How are you Kookie? I miss you" The words came out before I could stop them. I'm 96% sure you said you did nothing bc your lazy. Don't forget to water the daisies.!! And other than the heat it's pretty nice here. I had to shave my head, my hair was a safety hazard. Kept getting caught in stuff. I almost got blown up! It was so cool. I stole those 4 wheeler and I was zooming in the sand dunes and I ran over a mine. I'm not sure how I trigger it but when it blew up I flew like 1000 feet up and fell. I sprained my finger but it was so cool!

He cried like a bitch, thought he died. The entire time he was like "Hyung I'm going to die!" He only went 2 feet of the ground since the mine was a few feet under and he was wearing gear. ~Hoseokie

Ignore that^ I can't erase it. My pencil is just a piece of lead. Anyways. I miss you so much.
I want to come home. I promise I will. Duty start soon so I really should check in but I will wri

I sighed and read the note one last time, upset that it was cut short. "Please come home."