up against the wall

The night after.

I woke up feeling better than I deserved. I know I drunk my weight in liquor last night.  I should be hungover. But thank the lawd I feel amazing. Then my mind went to  that God of a man.Christopher is his name. I sit back in my bed  going  over his features in my head. From his bald head, full mustache, to his slanted eyes. To his full eyebrows an long lashes. To his thick lips. I could just imagine his lips kissing every inch of my being . To his big strong hands he had wrapped around my waist last night. To his dark eye that just pulls you in. The way he talk . This man is dangerous. But what's life without risk right. This could be fun, nothing too serious just plain ole fun. I can do that right. No strings attached. Two grown consenting adult enjoying each other's company.

I can go into this without any expectations.  With that in mind. I get my day started. This lady has a company to run.

CHRISTOPHER P.O.V.

      I woke up with that petite little chocolate drop from last night on my mind heavy. She actually sat there an listened to me going on and on about my dreams, and ambitions. I found out she owns her own company. She's a medical esthetician. But she also studying to get her R.N. License. Baby girl out here making big moves for herself. I can appreciate that. I hate a lazy woman who can't stand on her own two feet. I need to know if I fall short, she'll have my back. You know match my energy.  Someone I could build a future with. I'm not out here looking for just any sport fish to hang on my arm. I need someone who makes me not only look better, but make my life better. Someone whose just  as at peace with themselves as I am with myself. So we don't disturb each others. I want to know what makes her smile.So I can put a smile on her face. I want to know what she make her tick. Where she sees herself in ten years, fuck that five years. I need to know before I let her in, if she's even worth it. She could be into games. Something I have absolutely no time for. What the fuck am I doing we haven't even been out on a date yet. An look at me planning  a life with someone I don't know. I don't know her from the can a paint, that  I purchased last week. So I'm going to go into this without any expectations. I can do that right. Just plain ole fun, no strings attached. What's life without risk right. I hope for god I'm doing the right thing.

Eric's P.O.V.

I've been up all night walking back and forth calling Veronica and she's sending me straight to voicemail. I know what I said, but that's before everything started crumbling beneath me. I can't lose my fucking wife. It was all fun an  games when I could have my cake and eat it too. Now she don't want nothing to do with me. I call her phone again for the tenth time she still not answering. Why the fuck isn't she answering my phone calls. It's not even that bad. It suppose to be til death do us part. But it was also suppose to been me  forsaken everyone else but her. I fucked everything up. What am I going to do without my woman. The person I would give my last breathe for. But I just couldn't keep my dick to myself. I'm talking in fucking circles now . This has me off my axel. I don't know what she's going to do. I just hope she don't leave my ass. Man I can't believe how all of this is falling apart like this.   Who the fucked told her? It could've been any of those women. What the hell was I even thinking. None of them even competing with my wife, stupidity is what's it's called. A damn fool at it's best.