Emerald Skies

Break Down the Walls

Ch 19; Break Down the Walls

No matter what Laura says about the connotations placed on love, nothing in the world could explain what so inclined me to drop to my knees that night and repeatedly cry to Ross that I love him.

Is that what this really is though? Ross knows I love him. He knows that I care for him and what's best for him, even if sometimes we don't agree with those things. He knows that for me to see him happy is all I want from him, and that even the smallest of smiles from him is enough to make my day. He knows that even when we fight, that I would drop everything to be at his side no matter what lengths I'd have to suffer through. And, I know he feels the same. I know he loves me, but I just don't know if he knows he loves me.

He can tell me he loves me. He's family, and we love each other no matter what. I've disowned Rocky at this point, but that doesn't mean I stopped loving him. I'm furious at Rydel for her stupid mistakes, but I still love her. Apparently it's common knowledge that Ross and I have a different kind of bond though. A closer and stronger one than anyone else of our family. This bond we share... the one we've always known existed... could this connection we have be described by the fact that Ross and I are... in love?

Since Laura's suggested- no, obviously pointed out the fact that I was in love with my brother, I purged the idea from my mind and all my defenses went up. But after last night, nothing could convince me that I haven't fallen for that boy. Hard.

"You busy?"

I peek up from my laptop. "Ratliff? When did you get here?"

"We... have that interview in a couple hours. You didn't forget, did you?"

Yes I forgot! There's too much stuff going on right now- how am I supposed to be expected to remember this crap?!

"No- I didn't forget. We still have some time before we leave, don't we?" I ask in confirmation.

"I know. I just kinda wanted to talk to you about something first."

Like I said, too much stuff going on.

Ratliff takes a seat on the couch. "It's about Rydel..."

Without thinking, I burst out into panic mode. "Look Ratliff you probably shouldn't read too seriously into anything she says or does Rydel can be a little confusing at times and I just think maybe you shouldn't take her too seriously otherwise someone's gonna get hurt or someone else could get hurt and that could ruin things for all of us and it's just a really bad thing in the end okay?"

He blinks. "Uh, I was just gonna ask if she had a thing for Laura."

Seriously...?

"Why, did she say something to you about the cabin?" He asks with a ruffled expression. "Not that I'm trying to keep it a secret, but I figured she didn't want anyone else knowing. Much less her siblings."

"Umm..."

"She doesn't have a thing for me, does she?" He asks.

I take a deep breath. Okay Riker. No more shoot-first-ask-questions-later from now on, got it? "uh- no. She didn't say anything about it, I... heard it from the grape vine?"

"Laura told you?"

How the fuck does he know this shit?!

"She was kinda in the room when me and Rydel... so I kinda assumed that she may have said something to you or Ross." He says, anticipating my question.

Okay. Well on one hand Ratliff doesn't have feelings for Rydel. The issue now is that he's suspicious of Laura and Rydel, and, that could cause some problems in itself.