"Olivia you will have to find someone eventually.You can't spend your life thinking that every single man wants to break your heart.Things are different in every relationship." My bestfriend whined in despair.
"Karen,I'm just not feeling it right now.Jeez, there's a difference between lonely and alone you know?"I said irritated from her constant statements about me being single.Maybe I wanted to be single.Actually,I did want to be single. Not because I was scared, not because I was ugly and sure as hell not because I was some kind of lonely freak.
I just couldn't find a good man.Nope, let me correct that.I couldn't find the right man.
But women, ask yourselves,who IS the right man? That was a rhetorical question by the way,don't try to answer that. Why ? Because no matter how much you'll try to find an answer, you simply won't be able to. Because the definition of perfect is controlled by our hearts.
The moment we fall in love, is the moment our brain completely disconnects from our body.There is only one part that controls every situation and that is,our heart.The moment we fall in love is the moment we sign a contract sentencing us to tears and long heartbreaking days.A contract we have never seen, never heard of, and on top of everything, we don't even read it. We just sign it. And the better part? We don't even choose that. The heart does.
So let me tell you all about the right man now ladies. The "so called" right man exists. And believe me, when he comes you will not hesitate.Not even for one second. Cause deep down,in your gut , in your bones, in your stomach , in your heart...you will know it's him .Your insides will start burning and your eyes will become aware of every little detail as if you suddenly care about his opinion on how you walk how you talk,even how you drink your coffee. You will become insecure, you will change and that change will be tremendous.Cause you'll become blind and deaf, controlled by your heart, miles away from your brain,common sense and sometimes even sanity.
"You know I didn't mean it like that sweetie." Karens voice was pitiful and that's what triggered me the most.As if I was some kind of forever alone chick that would end up adopting thirty cats and dying surrounded by them.
"Karen can we just get wasted?Because clearly talking doesn't work between us.So shut the fuck up and drink your beer." Damn I was bipolar I knew that."I need to call Castiel, I'm horny and this party sucks." I whined.
"Why don't you try going out with him?I mean, you guys have been having sex for over three months but you've never been on a date.Don't you think that's a bit weird? She said drinking a big gulp of her beer.
"Nah, me and Castiel clearly don't click. You see, he's good in bed.I'm good in bed. Do the math."I said trying to sound funny. " I don't think I wanna go out with him.Frankly, he annoys me when he speaks." Karen laughed rolling her eyes. " Well, cheers to that."
"Cheers sis." My mood instantly got better.Karen was a fun person to be around with but as soon as she starts talking about guys she's just annoying. Just because she found Mr.Perfect from the age of 21 it doesn't mean I will too.
Oh yeah. I forgot to mention. We're in college and life is beautiful, hot guys are everywhere, what more should I want from my life? Nothing.The answer is nothing.
"Look!" Karen elbowed me. She was starting to become sloppy. I laughed. "What, where.Karen what is it?"
"It's the cute guy from the cafeteria who is always checking you out." She said sounding more excited and alive than ever. "Oh you're right it is him.What a coincidence!" I ironically responded to her. We both started laughing. It was normal, I was getting tipsy and everything was beautiful eveyrone seemed hot and life seemed great.
" Do you think I should go talk to him? " I said not taking my eyes off of him."Karen wait...Is he coming our way or did I just have too much beer?"
"Shut up and smile Olivia.Just shup up and smile." She said between her teeth.
But my smile quickly turned into a frown. " Why in the freaking hell is he walking like this?" Me and Karen looked at eachother."I honestly don't know but keep smiling."
" Oh my god. That did not just happen "
