Tortured Love (An O2L fanfiction)

Chapter 5

We finally arrived back at the apartment after a long and torturous ride with Ricky; I contemplated killing us both on the way, every time he turned his stupid motherfucking head and smirked at me I was ready to take on the life of a murderer. So much had happened in one day it was unbelievable. I couldn't understand why Kat and Jc wanted to leave at night so badly, not that I really gave a shit because I'd sleep the long seven hour drive anyway. I'd never been to Mae Lake before and I was ecstatic about getting away but I was dreading who I was getting away with. Ricky was now the least of my problems now; I didn't know what his girlfriend would be like, what if she was a conceiving bitch? Or worse what if she was the most beautiful and caring person ever? How could I look at someone everyday knowing that I had kissed their boyfriend before, and knowing that I wanted to do it again only this time I didn't want to squirm away, this time I wanted to go all the way. I hated Ricky so fucking much but I couldn't help but want him more all at the same time, whenever I was in five feet of him my mood completely changed, I couldn't understand the affect he had on me but I didn't like it, I felt like he had a way of controlling me.

But I don't like to be controlled, that's the whole reason I moved away from home in the first place.

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I shifted nervously on the couch next to Kian, and ignored his hopeful glances my way for the moment. Don't get me wrong I love me some Kian but I felt so guilty right now I couldn't think about how beautiful he was. After about five minutes of fidgeting with my hands Kian moved over next to me and placed my hands in his, he rubbed them in hopes to soothe me and I relaxed a little bit but the tapping of my heel on the floor repeatedly replaced the fidgeting of my hands not long after his kind gesture. He frowned at me which only made me feel guiltier, this trip wasn't going to be good not if I constantly felt like this. "Jade" Kian whispered. "Stop it"

"I-I I can't" I stuttered.

"What's the matter then beautiful?" He asked as he pulled me against his chest.

"I can't tell you" I said as I looked into his eyes. I couldn't bring myself to tell Kian, especially since he was so innocent and kind. I didn't want to involve someone so gentle in something like this, not to mention Ricky was one of his best friends. I didn't doubt that I could confined in Kian but I didn't feel like it was my place to tell him.

Connor already knew though.

"It's not that I wouldn't want to tell you it's just that I don't want to involve you." I smiled at him and he squeezed me gently.

"It's because I'm Kian isn't it?" He laughed into my hair and kissed my forehead gently.

"No it's because you ate all the pizza." I laughed back and I felt his chest rumble with laughter again. "Hey Kian what apartment is Connor's?"

"Up one level, room 204" I shifted and stood up smiling down at his frown.

"Were leaving in twenty minutes so he'll be here soon" He pouted his lips. "Come back and snuggle with me until then?"

"There's just one thing I have to do first but I'll sit next to you in the car okay?" I bent down and kissed his cheek. "And we can snuggle the whole seven hours" I watched him smile and nod before walking towards the door and exiting the apartment.

Whoop, whoop snuggle time with Kian, yeah bitches.

I raced up the stairs to Connor's apartment and knocked on room 204.

"Just a second" I heard his sweet voice shout. True to his word seconds later he answered the door shirtless.

Sweet fucking Jesus. What the fucking fuck. Someone should not look that fucking good and be able to get away with it.