born a beast

"Your a monster"

Jake's p.o.v.

As soon as we get in my room Alyssa basically tackles me with questions and with herself. so there we are alyssa straddle on my stomach, my heart beats when I'm around Alyssa that's the only time it beats.  No I'm not being cheesy that's literally the only time it beats.

Alyssa asks "How do you eat, how do you sleep, how were you changed." those questions were easy. so I answered simply"  I drink blood pouches from the hospital I have a friend that works there, I sleep like a normal person sleeps, and I wasn't changed I was born this way"

easy questions over with and she sits back and messes with the hole on her jeans at her knee. I can almost see the gears turning in Alyssa's head and a light bulb goes off when she think up the questions I have dreaded answering my whole life.

"Jake do you ever want to feed on me, have you ever fed on me, and have you killed anyone?" Alyssa asks and the beating only she can get my heart to do stops.  

I wait several minutes and then finially I spill " Alyssa yes I've wanted to feed on you so bad and I have had to stop my self several Times you know how hard it gets when You hug me ,I mean you always smell so damn delicious... I'm sorry but that's the truth no I have never let myself feed on you and um nope I've never killed anyone" 

she shoots me a glare and I fold"  okay okay! put that look away! I've killed someone I hate myself for it, I know I'm a monster, and your Gonna hate me too ,I just know it"

I say pacing the room as I think of her hating me and I start stressing. she jumps up too hug me as if it was a instinct. when I try to pull away she wrap her arms tighter around me and tells me

" I'm not letting go until you hug me back dammit"  I know she's not lying i hug her back . " I will never hate you and your not a monster stop that Jake ok stop it" she pulls me closer the beating starts again.

 

Alyssa looks up at  me and I want to kiss her so bad. I lean in, her cheeks redden  and she turns her head revealing her neck I can see her pulse and I'm almost hypnotized by the smell " Jake you can feed if you want I don't mind. " I hear her say and it wakes me up from the haze and I pull away.

" I'm gonna go get a drink." I say hurt in my voice and I leave the room slamming the door behind me hot tears streaming down my face. I think over what just happened.  I slide down and cry for a good five minutes.

telling myself over and over again"  your not enough for her, you put her in danger by even knowing her, your a monster you disgust me."

I finally get Up and look at myself in the mirror the kid I was years ago, I can barely see but I see a monster clearly. My fangs popped out my eyes a grey hungered look and I hate it. my rage fills me and I slam my fist to the mirror and it shatters. shards stabbing into me But I don't care maybe the pain will train me someway.

I ignore cleaning up and forget the drinks and go to my room. when I get there Alyssa is passed out on my bed, her mascara running and I sit on the bed and pull her into my lap. she snuggles herself close to me and I run my fingers through her hair.

" I love you Alyssa"  I whisper and kiss her head knowing she's asleep. "I'm so sorry that your loved by a monster like me."

I lean my head to hers and falls asleep.

I awaken to Alyssa's scream.

~~~TRUE FACT BOUT ALYSSA AND JAKE~~

ALYSSA and Jake are a real couple without the fangs. They always joke about Alyssa's crazy obsession to vampires where Jake says I'll be your vampire. so I'm writing this for  them. The story of if Jake had fangs. and of course it's not their real last names

hey guys so I updated what do you think keep me updated I always feel like I should give up what do you think leave comments anything just let me know. oh and I've been thinking maybe I could give you facts about Jake and Alyssa every update? What do you think?

I LOVE YOU GUYS AND GALS

AND FROM JAKE, ALYSSA, AND MYSELF GOODNIGHT