Suicide, She Wrote

Attempted

So your probably wondering how and why I tried and wanted to kill myself. Well since you read this far, I suppose you deserve to know. For nights I sat on my bed contemplating, questioning life. If God loves us so much, why does he make us live in hell every single day. My life is worst than the Twilight Saga and well that's pretty bad. For months and years I had been caught in my own sadness, bundled up in my own mistakes like a baby in a blanket, except babies were innocent and sweet..Me? Well im the opposite. I couldn't really tell you the exact reason I've been feeling this way for years because even I don't know. It seemed like every move I made, was 10 steps back from where I want to be. One day, I want to be a District Attorney, to work within the court of Law, and give the people of the United States the justice they deserve. But there's a problem, I don't exzactly have the best track record and I'm not a genius, who would ever hire me? I'd probably end up some low life, somewhere selling drugs, in a gang or something. That isn't what I want for myself at all, but how am I suppose to get to where I want to go with my past? Who would want to hire me or accept me into their University? All of these thoughts running through my mind about what a complete failure I was. I cried, and I cried and I didn't want to see my future. I wrote a note.. The sadest note you ever would have read. A suicide note, my last words. I write all these things, to my parents and my sister..I tell them I'm sorry that im such a disappointment. I soon walk down the road, I was standing at the edge of a bridge near my house. I stood there,forever it seemed like. Wondering if I should do this or not, eventually I stop thinking and I jump. The next thing I know,Im waking up in the hospital, wearing a back brace. My parents around me. But, my friends weren't there. And when I got out, they didn't even ask if I was ok. And from then on, my life was more of a fiery hell than it was before. Welcome to my life.