Lovesick | e.g.d

prologue

Ya I guess you could say I was too blind to see his love for me. So blind that it messed shit up. I mean everything's my fault, right?

Of course it is, because of you he's in the place he is now.

We never did talk, but we knew of each other. He was new to our school. He had moved on my street but I never visited him.

But now he not here because of me and it still haunts me to this day.

"Oh look who it is." Said a familiar voice.

I ignored it and continued to put my books into my locker.

"Hey bitch I'm talking to you!" He yelled slamming me up against the locker harshly.

"Grayson, get off of me." I said trying to push him off.

"Give me one good reason why i should." He said griping my writs tighter, most likely making bruises.

But I stayed silent. If anything I deserve to die right now.

"Exactly, bitch has nothing to say." He said laughing and backing up.

"Why don't you go kill yourself, you don't deserve I be on this earth you worthless piece of shit." He spat.

I was considering it, I know I'm worthless and everything he was saying right now, I knew was right.

I could feel the tears threatening to spill. I shut my locker and went into the bathroom to clean up but, just to my luck, Suzie was there.

"Aww did my boyfriend hurt little Lauren's feelings?" She spoke in a baby voice. But I stayed silent.

"I need some self confidence, I'm not feeling as sexy as I actually am. Come here." She said stretching her arm out to me.

I hesitated but she grabbed me a pulled me over to her. She looked back and forth from me to her.

"Thanks Lauren, I feel better now." She said pushing me away.

"Oh and why don't you go home and throw up a couple times? You could use it, maybe while your at it you can drink bleach. It would do us all a favor." She said as she walked out of the girls' bathroom.

I was so done with everything, I hated Suzie, I hated Grayson, and most of all I hate myself. And if I wasn't for me a year and a half ago, I wouldn't of let him slip through my fingers.

All because I never knew that a boy like Ethan Dolan loved me.

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