OBSESSION

THE PAST

GRAYSON

intense light stung my eyes forcing me to gain consciousness

"what the fuck Ethan" I groaned as my brother turned the lights in the bedroom on and it went from looking like a graveyard to a club

I stretched my arms out to get rid of the exhaustion and sat up on the edge of the bed glancing at Ethan who stood against the wall typing on his phone and quickly placing it back in his pocket

"Which one of your girlfriends are you texting right now baby brother?" He scoffed at my observation
"Before I come towards you and give you a bruise on your face, get up" He stepped towards me while grabbing a cushion from the couch and powerfully hurling it towards me but my reflex's grabbed it with absolute ease.

I smirked as he rolled his eyes and got up from the bed, stepping towards the marble-laid bathroom.
"Hurry up alright, you have a conference to attend"
I sighed as I glanced at my reflection in the mirror.

The constant responsibility of work and men was on my shoulders, but with the pain came the pleasure of being the world's finest businessman as well.

Every single man in the land threw themselves willingly on my feet to do my bidding, only to be regarded by me. My profession was difficult for many but manageable if your heart was stone and does not allow yourself to connect emotionally with others, either because they were afraid or you were simply not interested.

As I took my shirt off, deep and jagged cuts became visual to me in my reflection. It had been years since but these cuts were as adamant as I was; not yearning to heal themselves.

they reminded me of my past that lingers on to my present to this date
a history that had two emotions to an extreme; hatred and love
one of them became a part of me, while the other one left me a long time ago

Turning the knob on, I stepped into the shower letting the tiny droplets of water fall rich on my body and hugging me completely, leaving me clean and soothing my senses with its warmness

THE PAST

inhaling the toxic fumes of the cigar gave me relief as she stood in front of me with her glossy eyes

"whatever is on your mind Grayson is not real, you've been lied to" she reached closer to me and held my face in her hands. "I swear we didn't do anything!"

I smiled as I shoved her hands away from my face, exhaling smoke from my mouth to hit her face she coughed in response and waved her hands to get rid of the fumes

Laughter escapes my mouth as she stares at me in disbelief "Which part of your lies do you want me to believe this time huh?" grabbing her face gently yet forcefully I pulled her against me and brought the cigarette to my lips again

A teardrop fell from her ocean blue eyes slowly as she cupped my face with her hands. looking down she shook her head. She knew she had been caught. I was familiar with her cheating on me by now. She looked up and a sudden mischievous look spread over her face as her lips turned up
"All of them"

I pushed her face away with my hands as she laughed out loud "tsk tsk I thought I could be the one to fool the master of all but aren't you a smart little guy" she pouted at me as she spoke pressing her back, relaxing against the wall

My eyes became teary but not a single tear dared to fall. I nodded my head in disbelief and gradually strolled towards her "I'll give you the benefit of the doubt to say that you might've made me a fool by believing that you are in love with me," my body now pressed against hers "but you know it'll be the end of the world the day the devil falls in love"
I knew I was lying

She scoffed and tried to push me away but I stood my ground firmly, she wasn't able to move an inch of me given my toned physic. lowering my head I brought my lips to her ears "I may be heartless but you're naive to think you could get away with this"

Slowly backing myself up from her to watch her confused face I made my way to the door while turning my back to watch her staring at me

Bringing my hands to my mouth and removing the cigarette from my lips, I carefully looked at it before I moved my eyes up and took a glimpse of her as she stood there so effortlessly. The way the black dress wrapped her curvy body so tightly would make any guy sell his soul to have a few minutes of her time, I smirked as I flicked the cigarette onto the kitchen table

She laughed at me rolling her eyes "what's that going to do? If you wanted to kill me then you should've at least thrown it at the stove darling"

I shook my head down as I made my way through the door slamming it. steering my way out of her newly furnished house, cries could be heard from the window as the entire floor of the house caught fire

I think she forgot that a lit cigarette does not need to be near the gasoline for it to catch fire

PRESENT

My eyes flick open as water trickled down my face. My breaths became heavy and inconsistent as I recalled my past. My palm pressed against the black wall to gain composure in myself as I came back to reality.

"You good Gray? We have to leave by 9" Ethan's voice came across the closed wooden door along with a few subtle bangs. "give me a second" I shouted from inside and could hear the sound of his footsteps changing direction and a thumping sound as he leaped onto the bed

Turning the shower off I ran my fingers between my lust silky black hair to strip the dampness from it, as I grabbed the towel from my side and slid it across my torso while warm water still dripped from my chest

The mirror had become foggy due to the warmth made by the shower. Dragging my hand across it, I carefully examined myself as my face became more apparent.

My past with her was something that has been with me ever since, always leaping up to my present self, damaging me. It made a hole inside my hollow heart with was impossible to fill now. Hollow and broken. Just the way I would describe myself if I never made my way back into my life.

Stepping out of the restroom I made my way into the marble-laid walk-in wardrobe. It consisted of black and whites only because colors made me feel fragile and no one would take me seriously

Dressing myself up and having a final look in the mirror. Muscles bulged out of the shirt almost unsure when to rip it apart and show themselves, lush Brown hair pushed back with the help of gel that had been groomed so carefully. The only blemish was the fluffy brows that were knitted in frustration

"Sexy lad, no wonder why everyone wants to fuck you badly" Ethan's backhanded compliment put a smirk on my face as I made way to the mahogany door on which he pressed his side while putting me in observation

"It's better to "be" fucked by me than to have me fuck you up" We made way to the Bently as he laughed at my comment "you are something else brother"

Indeed I am