Will They Meet Again?

12. Yes Only A Stranger

I was in middle of thinking when it stuck me as to why I came here.

I again looked at her. She was in same position. I went quietly to her and sat down beside her. She didn't look up nor did she shift. As though...as though she knew who approached and who sat beside her.

Am I that predictable? Specially to a girl whom I just met some days ago. I mean like she doesn't even know me.

Ah well what do you expect? There are more genius people than you who can figure out various things. Get a hold of yourself, my mind shouted at me.

Oh right....

"Hey"

Kim's POV

I was angry. I was angry at my friends. I was angry at the girls. I was angry at the boys too. I was angry at myself. I was angry at Daniel.

I was dragged into all my past memories just because of those 2-3 lines he spoke.

Damn it.

How can I be like that? Just 2-3 lines and there you go, back to square one. But till when? You have to live here for the rest of your life. You have many things to do. If you just freak out after 2-3 lines then what are you gonna do if you meet one strong hell of opponent?

Just 2-3 lines from that person. Come on its fine. What does he know about you anyway that you're minding what he said? Okay that really did some damage.

But again what was I expecting from a stranger?

Yes he's nothing but a stranger to me. I just met him two days ago, so what? It's not like I've known him for ages. I've never considered the ones whom I met just two days ago as friends or an acquaintance. I don't trust people that easily.

You are strong. You're not the one who cares about others' talks and crap. You have moved on that shows that you are ready to face the world blah blah blah.

I don't know to how many people I've preached that same sermon. But again it's easy to preach than to follow it yourself. That's what I'm feeling right now.

I can give myself a day, right? So lines spoken, damage done, sulking is all that is left. So let's do that.

I'm sorry I tried to be positive, dear brain and heart but I can't help it, you guys have suffered.

All those past memories were flashing before me. I didn't want that. I struggled to keep them aside and somehow managed to sleep.

However I was thrown out of the dreamland soon.

I got up. I looked at the clock. It was 4 in morning. Breakfast is served at 7. I looked out of the window, it's still dark. Maria was sleeping soundly beside me.

I went to bathroom, brushed my teeth, took a shower, left my hair down and wore a light yellow dress. I didn't sleep properly so I was feeling heavy. I wasn't in the mood of doing anything.

Okay you've had enough of this.

I can't go on like this. It's a new day so I gotta have new thoughts as well. I decided to give myself a good break. I took my cell phone and went out.

I walked in the garden. It's beautiful and refreshing. I the walked aimlessly. Before I knew it, I was tracing the same path that I followed yesterday with that person behind me, only difference is that he isn't there.

I found myself in the orchids soon. I liked it here. It's a fresh place. Cool breeze was blowing. The sky was still dark and the lamps were glowing. It looked beautiful. I went more deep into the orchids. I didn't want to at first but this place is free of all the imaginative things that one can find in the woods, at least that's what I've been told.

I looked around and was hopping and humming song. I came to an unexpected sight. In the middle of this place was a beautiful lake. It had beautiful wooden bridge on it and a wooden deck too. The way to the lake deck and bridge was of stones. There were maple trees around the lake. I went to the deck and sat down.

The water was Crystal clear. It was beautiful when illuminated by the lamps. It's like a mini heaven. I didn't know that such place existed here. Last time I didn't see it. I admired the beauty there. I took out my cell phone and started reading. I mean who would wanna miss that in such environment?

I was so engrossed in the reading that I didn't notice the time. It was already morning and the birds were chirping. I looked at the time, it was 6:30 a.m. already. I sighed.

Then I remembered all the things that happened. I started to feel down again. I soon got lost in my thoughts. I gathered my legs to myself and rested myself on them. I didn't realise that someone sat beside me.

"Hey"

I was startled and turned towards the source. I was met with deep blue eyes staring at me.

No...I don't wanna do this again. I can't face those eyes again. It's not like I can't, but it's that I just don't wanna face them. Not again.

I didn't reply. I turned and was back to my original position, resting on my knees. He sighed.

"Sorry"

"....huh?!"

"I'm sorry for yesterday"

"Oh?"

"It's okay", I said again.

"You know I've been thinking about it sinc........"

I waved my hand to stop him.

"Save it Daniel. I don't wanna hear it. I don't wanna do that again."

"But didn't you forgive me? So I want you to listen to what I wanna say."

"Yes, I did forgive you. And that's because I don't wanna hear about what happened with you after that. I did that so I that I don't get to listen to all your talks.....ever again."

"What do you mean?"

"I mean that it's okay what you said yesterday and did. I don't care. Maybe you've always been this way but I don't know you. And I don't wanna. So you can save your speech in that regards. But you know, I've also always been this way and you can't put up with that and I can't do that with you either, so just leave it that way."

"I don't wanna start talking again anew and forget about what happened. It's not gonna change the fact that we won't get along. So I'm saying that I don't wanna do this again and waste my time. So let's not talk like forever. You can go."

I told him what I feel. That's it for me. I really don't have time to put up with this crap. I don't wanna get along with impossible people. I'm also fine living  all alone. There are lot of people who will put up with me just the way I am. I don't need those who don't, to tolerate me and come to like me.

I have already given up all the expectations from humans towards fellow humans, the kindness, the compassion and I don't do that either. I don't show kindness and compassion to others as I've already done that enough just to be forgotten by them and be mean towards me later. So I stay away from that now. I don't wanna get into that mess again. The farther, the better.....