grow up » felix lee [✔]

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you told me how you always wanted to debut
that you wanted to pursue something
more than dancing

so you auditioned
with all your hopes that you'd be accepted
i prayed for your wish, too
there's nothing more that i'll love other than
seeing you happy

i was there for you
just like how you were for me
you told me how you felt so nervous
i told you that it'd be okay

months passed by
slowly, gradually, you lost hope
you did not want to hold on anymore
but i told you to not give up.

one day you ran towards me
and enveloped me in a tight hug
it felt warm like hot chocolate
my heart leaped in joy

you told me you received their mail
you told me you passed the audition

i felt so happy
finally, you'll be able to do what you love

but you also told me
that you'd have to move
far away from me
seas away from me

i asked myself
what should my heart feel?
should it be whole since he's living his dream
or should it be shattered at the thought of drifting from him?

i was selfish
because melancholy
swallowed my heart

but what could i do?
you weren't mine
you've never been
never will

i was selfish
i hugged you back
but tears streamed down my cheek

i told you they were tears of joy.
lies.

as much as i wanted to keep you
to be with you
to love you
i couldn't

because right now
i know better
i know i should let you go
i know i should free you

for you to be truly successful
i know you should get past the obstacles
and i'm obstacle number one
i know you should forget me

felix, never shall i forget you

nor shall i detest you

i love you

that i only want happiness for you

the sun shone vainly when i first met you
it did the same the last time i see you.

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