A/N Just gotta say.. in the pic above ^^ Yoongi is looking goood. and so is Jiminie. AND ALL OF THEMM AHAIJSBDKSO
Part 14:
Words- 1,173
P.O.V.- Jimin (Don't worry, next chapter it'll be Yoongi.)
Summary-
"It's nice catching up with you." I said. I was genuinely happy being with her, but i knew we couldn't avoid the complicated stuff for too long.
We ran onto the stage. Our fans instantly screaming our names. "Hello everyone!!" Namjoon yelled out. "Are you ready for us to perform?" Jin asked with his hand on his ear. "YES!!" The crowd yelled.
"Ok then." I said with a big smile. "This first song is about a certain someone~" Yoongi said in a sing-songy voice.
sing sing sing.... talk talk.... sing more.... scream I love you... say bye
SKIP SKIP
We piled into the bus. Jin and Namjoon fell asleep. Jungkook, Hoseok, and Tae were playing on the phone together. And yoongi was sitting next to me.
I pulled out my phone. Ready to text Yu-Na and ask when she wanted to meet up. "That was fun wasn't it?" Yoongi said with a cheesy smile.
"mhm" I nodded. Not really paying attention to him. He tried laying on my shoulder to see my phone, but i nudged him off.
"It's private." I mumbled. I could feel Yoongi staring at me.
J: Hey
N: Oh. Hey.
J: We're going to the hotel. I'm gonna shower. I was gonna ask when and where you want to meet.
N: Ok. Let's meet in Central Park at 3.
J: Ok. But can we go somewhere a little private? I don't want the fans to see us and start making things up.
N: Ok :)
I smiled. Then stopped as I realized my actions. It just felt so natural talking to her... like if i could... trust her..?
No
No
No
She left me. I can't get too soft around her.
I put down my phone. Then noticed Yoongi looking at his feet. He was uncomfortable and sad. I could tell. I was his best friend so it was obvious.
I sighed. "What's wrong?" He looked up. "What's up with you, Jimin?" He was upset. "Nothing is ever private with either of us. We're supposed to be a team. We should tell each other everything."
I sat there. I was confused. Yoongi was never this emotional. He was always the type to never get upset about little things... or even anything. What's going on?
"You're being emotional." I put my head back and closed my eyes. I was a mixture of emotions.
First i liked yoongi a tiny itty bitty bit.
But now i'm reconnecting with my ex.
Now i'm happy that me and my ex are meeting up. But i was also jealous of Min-Seo for being so good to yoongi. But i was also annoyed at Yoongi for being so upset.
I was so wrapped up in my thoughts that it took me awhile to notice the sniffling noises coming from next to me... I opened my eyes and looked over....
Yoongi had his hands clutched to his hair. He was looking down and crying. His jeans were getting wet from the tears.
I felt my heart drop. But at the same time i got even more annoyed. "Stop crying... please." I said in half concern and half annoyance.
"I'm so c-confused. Why am i crying? Why do I become so s-soft around you?" He said silently. Then he said in a louder voice " Why is it you?"
I looked away. I looked out the bus window. On the outside.. i just turned my head. But in the inside... It felt like i was turning my back on Yoongi.
And...
and I didn't even...
feel bad about that...
i felt good...
to be able to block out the stress..
I couldn't stop thinking about Yu-Na. She was the only thing on my mind. I wasn't thinking about the man next to me at all.
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I told everyone I was going to the park. That's all I said though. I grabbed a jacket and left. When I got to the park, I saw Yu-Na off away from everyone, preparing a picnic. I walked over.
"Yu-Na!!" I called out.
She teared up a bit as she saw me. "Jimin!" She jumped up from the table. "I haven't seen you in so long..." she was holding back from hugging me. I could see she was fiddling with her dress. She always did that when she was holding back from doing something.
"You can hug me. it would be nice to have one." I smiled. "YOU READ MY MIND!" She yelled as she swung her arms around me. She was crying.
"I missed you so much." She told me. We sat down and ate our fruit and sandwiches.
-20 mins later-
"It's nice catching up with you." I said. I genuinely was happy to be with her, but i knew we couldn't dodge the complicated stuff for too long.
"So... Can I ask you something?" I fiddled with my jacket zipper as i said this. I wasn't sure if i was ready for the truth.
Her face went pale. "Uh. Sure." She returned back to smiling. She sat there, waiting for me to ask the question she already knew was coming.
"Why did you leave me?" I teared up as i said this. She looked at the ground. Before I could do anything my tears spilled out of my eyes.
"why did you leave?! I was so excited to get married. Do you know how devastating it was to go surprise you and find you left?!"
She looked at the ground, her eyes wide and her mouth hung open. As if wanting to say something but struggling.
"I-I..." She trailed off. "You what?!" I cried out. I was so scared. I was so upset.
"I wasn't ready..." She admitted. I sniffled. She stayed with her eyes glued to the ground. "I wasn't ready. I wasn't ready to commit to staying by your side. I wanted to... but I couldn't help but think I was ruining you."
"What do you mean?" I asked. I was hugging my jacket in my arms. "I mean. I'm a horrible person.... I don't deserve to be with an amazing and kind person with you. I'm fucked up. I don't want to fuck you up too."
We sat their silently. "Jimin... I love you."
She was debating whether or not to continue. "I've always loved you... I never stopped.. but I don't trust myself around you. I don't want to hurt you ever! That's the last thing I want to do. But... I can't be with you!! I can't mess yo-"
Before she could finish... She was interrupted by Jimins plump lips on hers....
A/N
Prepare your heart.
Thxs to Bella for helping me with this chapter!! I love you Bella!! 💜
And of course, I love everyone reading this chapter. xx
-Alyssa
