Evergreen Girl

The Evergreen Girl Part One Chapter 1

I closed my eyes....I could feel the wind blow against my face.
I could smell the cool air and it made me feel so free.
This was one time that I could escape from this nightmare and into my dreams.
I stood....squeezing my fist.
I stood there thinking why did I deserve this??? What did I do????
I felt so much betrayal
My mother died when I was 4.....dad never talks about her
Now when I ask he just grunts and says "She's your mother." And that's it...nothing else.....never even seen a picture.
I turn 13 next month.....the abuse....well it didn't start till I was 11
My dad wasn't really a bad man he just has a lot of anger bottled up inside him
My name is Lacey.....I'm 5'5 and I weigh roughly 134 pounds I'm not one of those skinny girls who puts her hand down her throat so she can keep her *figure*
Nah I just can't gain weight
I don't wear nothing fancy like all the kids at my school I haven't had clothes bought for me since I was 6
Dad would always say "Wear what you have on."
I wore a pair of bluejeans and a button up shirt
Dad always wanted a boy so I'm really not girly I'm a tom boy you should say
I'm quiet and I'm a loner I don't really have any friends
I never wanted any to be honest I felt like if I had friends it would give dad more reasons to hit me
No one really talks to me anyways

I stood there my arms held out squeezing my fist.
I always blamed God for everything
I've prayed and prayed and prayed and still nothing
I have my favorite spot picked out that's where I am now
It's a cliff that over looks Duntondale which it's not a really big place but I sit up here for 20 minutes after school
This is my thinking place and it doesn't help

I open my eyes up I sigh for just a little bit
I raise up I get my backpack and I head home
I put my headphones in I love my music loud so I don't have to hear anyone
My house isn't but like 2 minutes away
As I get to the porch dad is standing there tapping his boot

"Where the hell have you been?" He asked sarcastically
"I uh.."I stuttered
"Have you been up there again how many times have I told you to get home after school and to stop going up there but you never listen you never do."
He starts to unhook his belt
"Get in this house and you know what comes next."

I sigh because I know what he's going to do....his words are more frightening than his hits
I slowly walk into the house
Dad shuts the door behind me and I can hear him taking his belt off
As I get close to the coffee table which is rather a nice one I won't lie
Still the same way mom had it
Had that white cloth on top of it with my baby pictures in the middle of it it was oak and very very well kept
As I draw nearer I feel a force on my back and before I know it I'm tumbling down.
I feel the whips of the belt lash my back
The tears starts to bottle up
He lashed me 6 times which is less than usual he usually does 10

"Now get your ass in your bedroom."

I get up crying as I get to the stairs I look and snap at him
"Have you been drinking again?" I yelled
He looks at me shocked really I ran on up the stairs and slam my door
I have a lock on it which is a good thing and I of course lock it.