Evergreen Girl

The Evergreen Girl Part 1 Chapter 4

I remember my mother like yesterday her long blonde hair her beautiful brown eyes her gorgeous smile
Mom always wore dresses and she always attended church
Dad would always call her bad names and think she was cheating on him
She always said "David I love you and only you."
She was a devoted Christian
She was always at church and she always took me but ever since her passing I stopped
I always blamed God
My preacher once told me "Lacey you can't blame God for what life does to you."
I never knew what that meant but over time I come to realize the truth
I was so excited to hang with Logan after school I was counting the seconds down
As soon as the bell rang I head out the door I'm usually the first to leave because I have to walk I don't want to wait
I hear Logan behind me
"Hey Lacey wait up."
I stop
He catches up with me
"Shrew I thought you was just going to leave me."
"Nah I wouldn't do that Logan."
"Sorry if that kiss was too forward....I just think your beautiful and I just wanted to kiss your cheek."
"It's uh it's okay."
"Truth is I've never kissed a girl before and I didn't want to just grab you and be like hey baby and then smack one on you." Logan laughed
I of course giggled
"So where is this place at that is your favorite."
"There's a cliff that I go to that overlooks the town."
"Awe isn't that a bit boring?"
"Nah it's actually peaceful and I love the wind blowing in my face."
Logan looks at me and smiles
"Well I have to be home by 4:30 or my parents is going to kill me."
When he said that I was thinking "I have to be home too or my father will beat me." But I didn't say anything
I didn't want him to be ashamed of me or my bruises or my scars so I just said
"It won't take long I only stay 20 minutes."
"That's okay."
As we get there me and him sneaks passed the house so dad wouldn't see him or me and we go up there
I see Logan taking in the beauty
"Wow this is beautiful do you come here all the time."
"Yeah....it's my most favorite place in the world."
The cliff slanted a little you could see the beautiful blue sky for miles and you could see the tops of people's houses.
"This is my escape....my comfort....my peace."
Logan states at me for a minute
"I see are you a loner?" He asked
I looked at him "Yeah I don't really have friends."
"Where's your mom and dad?"
I didn't mind him asking questions I just wouldn't use to it I didn't know how to react
"Well....my um...my mom passed away....I live with my dad."
"Oh Lacey I'm sorry."
"It's okay it was a while ago."
Before Logan could get anything I heard someone
"LACEY ARE YOU UP THERE AGAIN?"
"Logan....I speak quickly....your going to have to go that's my father."
Logan didn't know what to think he scurried away and as I seen him run in the distance I was enjoying his company.
"LACEY!!!!!"
I head back over the hill and head to my house
Dads standing on the porch I could tell by his face he wasn't happy which he never is
"Lacey I asked you a question was you up there again?"
And quick without action I said the first thing that came to my mind "No I wasn't dad."
He looked at me for a brief second and had a smirk on his face
"Your lying....who was that boy I seen?"
"No one dad he's a boy at my school."
"Okay can you explain to me why a boy is up there with you.....what was you doing Lacey and don't lie to me?"
"Nothing dad we wasn't doing anything."
He comes off the porch at full speed and he grabs me by my arm and drags me in the house.
I can feel the strength of him shoot up my body and I can smell liquor on his breath.
He slams me down into the living room this time he doesn't use his belt he starts to kick me.
He kicks me 7 times
He scuffles backwards and forwards sighing and breathing heavy
"Do you think I want to do this Lacey huh do you think it's easy?"
I look up at him catching my breath
"It's your fault that I have to do this."
"Yeah it's my fault that you drink and beat me huh."
He slaps me in the face
"You never learn you just never learn."
I get up and run up the stairs and slam my door and lock it
"Good I don't want to see you the rest of the night."
He flops down on his couch and pours more liquor into his cup
I slam onto the bed tears pouring
I punch the wall screaming
"Why god why am I in this hell" I ball my eyes out....curled up in my bed
You would think that a child would get use to being beaten so much but it seems to be worse everytime
I lay back on my bed and I wipe my eyes out and I grab my Cd player out of my dresser and put my headphones on
I full blast my music and I close my eyes
I picture being in my mommies arms hugged up to her telling her "i miss you mommy I want you back please come back."
I repeat that out loud "please come back mommy please come back mommy."
"I love you mommy"
I close my eyes and I drift off into a deep sleep