diary of a sad boy

tuesday, 10:49pm

i'm so fucking tired jesus.

not for any particular reason, just exhausted from today. it was actually a really good day, i got my college sweatshirt and wore it to school, very happy because i'm SO excited for college. unfortunately, however, i was not able to retrieve my bags i lost/got stolen, so looks like i'll be dealing with no sports gear and half my school stuff missing. good thing i mostly stopped caring about school anyways.

we also had a game for track after school, and i was excited the entire time because after that they did the senior night thing they do every year, and this time it was our turn. it's so crazy because i still remember my freshman year senior night and just really confused the entire time because everyone was crying since they were leaving, and me being an anti-social lil freshy, did not really know the seniors all too well. however, me being a senior now, i've come to really love quite a bit of the freshman and a lot of them were crying which broke my heart. so i started crying of course. so between that and the actual race i had today, i'm very tired. but i've just been quite happy yesterday and today, not really sure why but i'm so okay with it since it's been a fucking while anyways. also, i'm pretty sure i mentioned a girl in one of the previous entries? anyways, she tagged me in this post on instagram and that small lil act made me happy. probably more then it should have, as i do tend to get overly emotional about basically everything. but i don't know, i guess in my eyes it showed me that we were hopefully on a path to better terms? it's probably just me though, i do tend to make things awkward and this time i REALLY fucked up so. not gonna go into detail, no need to as it already happened and i remember it well enough.

i wish i could stay up longer and not get tired as easily. i've been reading a really good book, on this website/app as a matter of fact, called Saving Everest. quality book, 10/10. i fall asleep really easily though, especially when i'm reading so i rarely have time to read, but i might tomorrow in my study hall if i manage to get all my shit done and still have time. i might just skip to avoid the test for a future date. that actually sounds like a really good idea, i'm doing that scratch everything. no test tmrw woot.

anyways, i'm still on the hunt for a roommate for college, and the deadline is soon. it's not 11:10pm and i'm even more tired then when i started so goodnight, au revoir.