"Can we?" (A Robbie Kay Story.)

Chapter 13.

Robbie quickly fell asleep after he ate. I do feel sleepy, but can't fall asleep somehow. I just watch Robbie, chest up and down, up and down, so slow, so peacefull.
Hundredths of thoughts running through my mind, never being quiet. If they could just shut up for like, one second?
I get up and stretch. Walking through the hallways made me feel better earlier, so I might just take a little walk.

Only this time.. Every person I see reminds me of Peter. It's so weird and creepy. I feel guilty leaving Robbie's side. What if he suddenly gets back to him? I know that it won't be easy, but still.
I buy myself a coffee and make my way back to Robbie's room. I smile from relieve, he's still sleeping, no one's here. I stay by the door, sipping from my coffe, that's still a little bit too hot.
"Miss?" I jump, and quickly turn around. "Doctor?" I never heared someone walking up behind me. "He's been steady, he's a strong guy." I smile at his words, i'm so glad to hear this. "Yea, he's a fighter.." My voice is so soft, I barely recognize  it. "He can go home in the morning, if he stays this steady." I almost want to hug him, but I think that might be kind of weird. "That's so good to hear, thank you, Doctor."

The doctor just runs some more tests on Robbie, just to make sure that he's steady enough. It has been a rough night for me, I barely closed my eyes. I'm just so, so glad that I can finally take him home.

It took some time to get a cab, but we are finally home. My house to be exact. I help him to get inside. "Here, you can lay on the couch." He sits down, then slowly lays down on his back. "You want anything? Tea? Coffee? Something to eat?" He gets a hold of my hand. "Diana, relax. I'm fine. I don't need anything right now. I'm just glad I can finally have some rest, without the doctors checking on me every 5 minutes and i'm also glad that you're okay with me staying here." I smile lightly and sit down next to him. "I just want you to feel like you're home and not alone.." He strokes my hand. "Diana, I already feel like i'm home. You don't have to act like a nurse. That will just make me feel like i'm at the hospital again." I nod in response, he's right. "You can watch some tv if you want? I think I might just take a bath." He gives me a soft kiss on the cheek. "That's okay."

I take a deep breath, the water is really hot when I sit down carefully. I just wonder how this guy has so many influence on me. I haven't known him for that long, yet I care for him like I've known him for years. I close my eyes, and then there's Peter. I hate that guy. I don't understand how he can hate his brother this much, why can't he just care? Even if it was for a little bit. If Robbie didn't have me, he would've been alone. No one would've found him. He could have died and no one would care. It's sad. I won't make him feel that way, not ever. Robbie deserves the world.

It feels like hours have passed by when I get out of the bath. I quickly dry myself and get dressed in some cozy pyama's, even though it's not even midday yet. When I come downstairs I see Robbie has prepared lunch. "You know, I would've done this for you, you need to rest.." I sit down by the table. "Diana, what did I tell you before? Relax. You've been taking so much care of me lately. Atleast let me do something back for you." I smile, "You're right. Thanks Robbie."

Robbie had made some really great sandwiches. "Those were so good!" I tell him as we were both drinking our tea, which was still a little hot. "Thanks, my own recipe." He said. winking as he did. "Hey, do you have enough energy to go for a walk after lunch?" Robbie nodded in response. "Alright." I smile and start cleaning off the table.

After I finished we both put on our coats and went outside. "Where do you wanna go?" Robbie asked, voice soft. "Just a place.." I smile, i'm taking him to the spot in the woods where he took me a while ago, where we shared our first kiss. I saw Robbie smiling when he figured out where we were going. We sit down in the grass, the weather is a bit chilly, so we sit down close to each other.

I sigh, "Do you think i'm weird?" Robbie turns to me, "No, why?" I shake my head. "It feels weird. I mean, I just.. I care so much about you. But how long do we really know each other? It just feels like it's going so fast." Robbie takes my hand, "Diana. Listen." I can hear in his voice that he's worried now. "Yes, it is going fast. But I think this is all true. You know what I mean? If you didn't really care, we would have not be sitting here right now." I look at him, he's right. "That's true.. I just don't want things to go too fast, you know? I don't wanna ruin things." Robbie kisses my cheek softly. "You aren't ruining anything, darling." I lay my head lightly on his chest, not wanting to cause any hurt. "Thank you.." I hate myself for bringing it up, but it was stuck in my head lately.

"Diana?" I look up at him, "Yea?" He strokes my hair, "Would you go to France with me?" I sit up, almost choking. "Are you crazy?" He laughs and also sits up. "I probably am, but i'm also serious." My mind is blown. "But, how? It's expensive.." I shake my head, we can't just go to France. "I have been saving for a long time Diana. And France has been on my bucketlist for ages." I still can't believe what he just asked. "Let me think it over for a while, okay?" He smiles and kisses my cheek again, "Ofcourse, I understand."

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