Inside Outside

7. While I Was Out

After editing the last chapter i realized something.... i needed to actually continue with the story. So i hope you enjoy this completely new addition! Also i'm sorry it took me so long to update, i had storyboarding to do and i hadta help out my fellow sisters as well, teehee. (excuse my terrible conjugating) ~BButterfly 

I wanted to just tuck myself in under the covers, dissappear from the world knowing that my friends were getting along, new friends always welcome, and secrets kept. Pacing across the room I looked at my cellphone, 4 o'clock, no time for sleep, maybe food though. I hadn't eaten since yesterday, and I probably won't for a while.

James and Aphie had gone outside to talk alone, but only after I put up a fight. I was literally in the middle of this mess, and I'm still out of the loop. 

Does James really like me? Other guys have liked me before, but never have I really been into the idea of an actual relationship. I couldn't even think of a relationship though! Jake might have just brought it up randomly to use against James, but if it was random, why didn't James reject the idea? 

Ugh, I had too much adrenaline to stop thinking, or jumping around the room. I was attempting to calm myself down before James and Aphie inevitably would come back; I changed into a long-sleeved, but rolled up, red shirt with a few of the tiny buttons undone, the top of the shirt was slightly stretched out so they wouldn't stay in their holes. I changed out of jeans, still damp from earlier, into black running shorts. The house was way too hot and I wouldn've turned the heat down, but I had no interest in seeing the mess that was the main area of the house just to mess with the thermostat. Sitting on the bed I looked into closet doors which were both mirrors. I took my hair out of loose ponytail it had been in, somebody must have tried to help me out after i'd gotten soaked. I've always loved swimming, even in freezing water, because it makes your curls shape perfectly. I could see my black bra peek out a little from under my shirt. Usually I would try much harder not to look slutty, but in a cabin full of my friends, with no boys in the room as of this moment, I didn't care. 

James, Aphie, and I left our bags in this room because after getting to the cabin we never even made it downstairs, unless you count the time after we crawled around there in the early morning. Last night felt like a so long ago. I couldn't wait untl i could recharge at home, but I can't complain, at least there's always something to talk about here; happy or not. 

I heard hushed voices outside so i opened the curtains on the large window. Aphie and James were walking towards the steps. Leaving the curtains open I lay down on the bed, one leg straight, the other knee up. "Hey, Arie." James poked his head through the door and I turned my head to look over at him. Aphie gave me a quick wave and a mischievous smile before continuing down the hallway. 

"I know you're not going to say anything, but I feel obligated to ask, what were you guys talking about?" James walked into the room and closed the door, shortly before sitting on the bed so his back was to me. He breathed out, obviously exhausted. Then he suddenly turned around and crossed his legs on the bed, looking me straight in the eye. 

"Arie, I'm sorry I wasn't around when you woke up. I just thought I needed to get out for while to calm down and be distracted by everyone else." James quickly whispers. 

***from now on this story will be in the present tense***

So I guess that was all the explanation I need. He just felt guilty about leaving me alone? I'm surprised that he even cares, although he is being rather clingy lately; I mean that literally. "I can't believe that you care so much, it's so cute. But, why were you so upset? Also I didn't really answer my question." Maybe I should just ignore his confession to me earlier for now. Although despite the fact that he's just my friend, I'm dying to know what he thinks of me for some strange reason.

"Oh, it's not a big deal. Nothing at all." I raise my eyebrows at him, not buying his lies. "Fine," he huffed, standing up and starting to pace. It's odd that we both pace. "It's just. Well, I was there, but then you were okay. So then I went...And if he hadn't shown up. What could have-? I should have. But you lied to me. You said you were fine. But I should have remembered you were a sucky swimmer. And I could have done it and how was he even there? He was off by himself being an idiot and suddenly decided to swoop right in and be the hero? He wants something. I don't know what but something is wrong. And you don't even remember any of it. How do you-? You know what? Never mind. But the point is, whether you remember it or not, I should have been there. I should have... and..."  

I stop him there. suddenly leaning forward, face to face with my hands on his shoulders. His eyes are widening, but I'm not too sure why I just want to stop his pitiful speech.  "So you were all there when I was taken out of the lake?" 

"Yes, we were all worried about you. More importantly though, Arie, there's been something I've been meaning to tell you for a while..." James slowly puts his arms around my waist, never letting his eyes leave mine as they moved closer. My mind is completely blank, what did he just say? Doesn't matter, maybe I want to kiss....

"Aphie! James!" We suddenly moved apart awkwardly hearing Cassie shout, she must have finished spending time with her dad in their family cabin nearby. "I brought breakfast for dinner stuff! Now you got to do the cooking!" James opened the door, leading the way once again, but this time out of our little world back to a mildly less small one. 

Well, this needs to be edited, and there's one paragraph i didn't even write, or read....... but i hope you all enjoyed! Comment and vote pretty please!!!!! ~BButterfly