Why Not Me?

Chapter 5 Both POV

Cas was sitting on the hood of the car waiting for Dean to get his snacks. They ate at late lunch less than two hours ago, but Dean insisted they needed popcorn. While he waited, the angel reclined against the windshield as Sam and Dean often do. It had been such a good day. He couldn't help but feel like he was on a date. When Dean invited him places it was usually to just run errands or to help with chores. In all their time of knowing each other, Cas couldn't recall a time when Dean invited him to do something just for fun. What's more was that this wasn't something that was just fun in Dean's eyes, this was Cas' version of fun. Though, Dean had enjoyed himself, especially while feeding the geese. One mama goose took a liking to Dean and followed him around the pond. Cas had never felt more connected to a goose before. At least she was the right gender.

Cas had wondered many times if he were in a female vessel would things be different with Dean. If he had taken over an attractive woman, then he's sure Dean would have tried to sleep with him. But Dean didn't t have many scruples when it came to sleeping with beautiful women. Cas thought that maybe that would have been worse. Sleeping with Dean, but not getting to have him for the other moments.

His thoughts were interrupted when Dean came bounding up to the car with an arm full of snacks. "They are practically giving this shit away, Cas. They charged two bucks for a bag of candy. At a real movie theater, it would have been five. I wonder how old it is."

Cas laughs at Dean's excitement. He's heard the human phrase "Like a kid in a candy store," and now he wants to take Dean to a candy store just to see his eyes light up. Maybe he will suggest that as their next outing.

"You're really going to like this movie. It's definitely in my top five favorite movies of all time," Dean said as he climbed next to Cas on the hood of the Impala.

"I'm sure I'll love it. You have great taste in movies."

"Damn right I do."

Dean ripped open his bag of licorice and offered Cas a piece, which he declined. "Come on man, they are little chewy pieces of Heaven."

"Dean, you and I have both been to Heaven, you know that's not true."

From the light of the screen, Cas saw Dean blush before he ducked his head. "Yeah well, what if today is one of the days I relive in Heaven? Licorice and all?"

Cas was stunned. He and Dean had never talked about Heaven. Dean had died many times but had only experienced what Heaven is truly like when Roy and Walt killed him. There was no agenda from Heaven, and he got to experience it the way any other soul would. At the time, Cas had been too wrapped up in his own sorrow to talk to Dean about his experience. Though he and Dean didn't talk then like they do now.

"You think today will be one of the memories you relive in heaven?" Cas asked.

Dean shrugged, biting into his candy. "I mean I don't even know if I'll go to Heaven, but yeah I think today will make it."

They stared at each other until the movie began. The volume coming from the speaker stand was loud, making Dean jump. "Son of a bitch," he mumbled.

They watched the movie in silence. One thing Cas had never been able to get over when watching movies or shows is the historical inaccuracies. But Dean was so enraptured by the movie that Cas didn't seem to mind how off this movie was.

He noticed Dean shivering and suggested they sit in the car. Dean turned down the offer, stating that watching outside is much better.

Though Cas decided to wear some of his new clothes, he still wore his trenchcoat out. There was something about it that made him feel normal, and he didn't want to leave it behind. It wasn't as though he needed it for warmth, it was more like a security blanket. He was wearing one of his "dad sweaters," and knew it wouldn't seem strange if anyone saw him without a jacket. So he pulled his trench coat off and wrapped it around Dean.