falling snow | ☾ k.h & m.k ☽

• 04

[HEECHUL'S POV]

Everything was too sudden. I was just normally sitting on my usual seat in my favourite restaurant, eating my favorite foods, but after just a split second, Kyunghoon already confessed to me. Of course, I was shocked. It took me almost a minute to react. My throat is dry and one glass of water is not enough for me to get my senses back.

"Kyunghoonie, I'm sorry but I don't see you that way."

We just stared at each other for a few seconds. His eyes turned red and he's on the verge of tears. I thought he was going to cry but instead, he let out a sigh and said "I know, hyung."

I felt my chest tightened. I know I will be hurt if I see Kyunghoon cry so I was getting ready explaining myself and comforting him. But he suddenly gave me a very gentle smile. And it pains me more. It pains me more to see Kyunghoon enduring all the pain inside him and stopping all his tears from falling. It pains me more to see him trying his hardest to show he's fine even though he isn't. It pains me to see him like this.

"Sorry, Kyunghoon-ah," I said, still looking at his teary eyes, contradicting his wide smile.

"You don't have to be sorry, hyung. In the first place, I didn't confess to you because I want to be your lover. You know, I realized something earlier when I was staring at you. I realized that I'm not really scared of being rejected. I'm not scared of being friend-zoned or bro-zoned (*chuckles). I'm just scared that you might not talk to me again if I confess. I'm just afraid of losing our friendship. I'm just . . . scared of losing you. I love you, hyung. And I'm not asking you to love me back. I just want you to let me stay by your side. I just want you to let me treasure you silently. I just want you to let me keep loving you with all my heart."

Ah, now I'm the one who wants to cry.

"Just . . . let me, p-please."

His gentle smile started to fade. He suddenly burst into tears and this time, he's really crying.

"I don't care if I'm just a best friend or b-brother. If, by any chance, you got a girlfriend, I would suppress my feelings. I won't care about your private life if you d-don't want me to. I won't cling onto you. I won't make you feel uncomfortable. I won't do any unnecessary things. I won't cross the line and I would always remember my limits. So p-please, stay as the H-Heechul I know. Stay as my brother. D-Don't leave me, h-hyung . . . p-please."

Shit.

I clenched my hands and my tears started to fall, too. My chest is now more tight and I feel like my heart is about to burst. It's so painful looking at Kyunghoon like this. I can't breath properly anymore. I was so ashamed of myself.

Am I the reason why Kyunghoon is like this? Am I the one did this to him? I didn't even notice his feelings. I messed his life and I didn't even know about it. I am the worst.

"Again, I'm so sorry Kyunghoon-ah. For hurting you. For making you cry. For destroying your smile. I-I'm sorry. I may not be able to return your feelings but . . . I will still be here for you as your hyung. I will still be your partner in every trouble and in any fight. I will still support you if you want to punch Hodong. I will still eat with you when you're lonely. I will still be your brother. I will still be your Heechul. I will stay, Kyunghoon-ah. That's a promise.

"T-Thank you, h-hyung."

We both went home with our messy face full of traces of tears. Nobody said a word. But with our smile, we understood each other. We're both happy . . . because we're still brothers.

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"Hyung~ Let's have dinner together~ I'm lonely~" Kyunghoon said with a girly voice, pouting and acting like he's some sort of elementary student.

"Hmm, okay~ Why is my Kyunghoonie pouting?~" I said as I cupped his cheeks with my hands and gently stroked his flushed face with my thumbs.

"Janghoon-appa won't go with me~ I bet he'll just go to a bar and flirt with women~"

"Aww~ He's a bad guy so I'll just be the one to go with you, okay? Kyunghoonie~"

"Ya! Stop acting all cute, you jerks! I'm the only one who's cute~" said Hodong who came from the bathroom.

"Yes, he's right! He's the cutest pig, after all," said Su-geun which made all of us laugh.

"Su-geun-aaaaaaaaah!" shouted Hodong before starting his body turbo and chasing Su-geun all around the dressing room up to the lobby.

"Aish~ Those two, really," said Youngchul with a sigh.

"They're always like that. They're partners after all," agreed Sungmin before giving out a small laugh.

"And here we have another partners, huh. I'm glad you two are back to normal," said Janghoon with a smile.

"Hmm, since Space Cowards is indestructible ," Kyunghoon answered.

"I can even win over you, bad appa (father)!"

And we all burst into laughter before proceeding to our own dressing room, change to our casual clothes, and finally, go home peacefully.

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