falling snow | ☾ k.h & m.k ☽

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[KYUNGHOON'S POV]

"Kyunghoon-ah," called Janghoon as he sit beside me, watching the rain outside.

"What is it, hyung?" I asked.

I didn't avert my eyes from the rain. Somehow, the sight and sound of it makes everything calmer. It helps me think and it helps me reminisce all the memories I shared with Heechul.

"Should we talk?" Janghoon asked with a worried voice.

"No, hyung. I don't really want to talk right now," I answered honestly.

"You don't want it but I think you need it."

I looked at him with admiration and chuckled.

How come he always knows what I need?

"It's about Heechul," he said.

"You know he's always like that, right? I know you can't understand why he's angry but I'm sure he also can't understand himself. Just forgive him."

"I know. That's why I'm like this. I'm confused. He's confused. We both know what's wrong. And I think it's my fault. If only I didn't confess to him that d—"

"Hey, Min Kyunghoon. It's not your fault. Maybe you just need to talk to him. Ask him. Maybe it will give you both an answer."

For about a minute, both Janghoon and I are just sitting there without a sound. I was thinking of what to do. I was contemplating whether to ask Heechul or not. I have no idea what will happen if I ask him and it's scary. But I also know this will not be solved unless we answer whatever's confusing us both. So I stood up and took a deep breath.

"Hyung, thank you," I told Janghoon. He just smiled and me and gave me a tap in the legs.

I went to the room where Heechul is. After knocking several times and getting no answer, I decided to just open the door and enter. He is curled up in his bed with blankets covering his entire body.

"Hyung, we need to talk," I said.

He didn't answer nor even moved a bit.

He's ignoring me.

"Hyung, I said we need to talk," I said with a little annoyed voice.

There was a moment of pause before he answered.

"There's nothing to talk about. Go back."

I was about to go to him when he suddenly stood up and walked to the door.

"Go out," he ordered as he open the door. His eyes are cold and it's red as if he's been crying. His face and his hair are a mess and his bright aura seems to be gone.

"Hyung, just tell me what happened," I told him.

"I told you there nothing to talk ab—"

"Please," I said before he could even finish his sentence.

There was a moment of silence between the two of us. We just stared at each other for a few minutes and I started to notice his tears in the verge of falling. Soon after, as if he came back to his senses, he spoke.

"You want to know what's wrong? Really, Min Kyunghoon? You really want to know? IT'S YOU! IT'S YOU, FOR GOD'S SAKE!"

His face turned red together with his eyes. Now, the tears are rapidly falling from his eyes. He is visibly trembling and he punched the wall beside him with his clenched fist. He is a mess.

"Y- You said you like me, right?! You said you like me! Then, why are you flirting with somebody else as if it's nothing?! You look ridiculous, dumbass! You look despicable! If you really like me, then like only me!"

He was shouting and I'm sure everyone outside could hear his voice. It was so loud that even the rain couldn't defeat it. And it pulled a trigger inside me.

"What are you saying? You want me to like only you? You want to me pin me down to you? You're the dumbass! You want me to keep loving you when you can't even love me back? Just how cruel can you be?! I already accepted that you can't reciprocate my feelings! I already accepted the fact that we can't be more than brothers! And I'm doing my best to forget my feelings for you! Because it hurts so much! And now you're telling me this? Just how much do you want me to suffer for you to be satisfied?!"

He couldn't say anything back. He was just crying really hard. And I'm very close to crying, too. So I just decided to leave. I need to get away from him. I don't care if it's raining. I just need to get away. I just want to go far away from that house. So despite the heavy rain, I left. I don't know what happened next.

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