my life is getting better in reality its getting worse. i dont know what to do. my family does'nt love me my sister wants to kill me. i need help. i could'nt sleep not anymore cause im afraid of everyone leaving me. depression has gotten worse but what can i do. i want to cry. i hate myself i want people to be proud of me but they arn't. im only alive to make people happy, i failed. what do i do next is a mystery what I say will only kill me. why doesn't my family love me anymore. my real dad kills himself when i was 4 left alone. now my mom and my sister are with our new dad. me and him used to get along until the day. yesterday 4/26/2018 my dad gets mad at me because he is not proud of me. he said i need to make him proud, why would anyone say that do you know???? Everything i do is to impress him but i only get shut down. I am gonna make a new face one that i am happy in. one where i am beautiful and i get respect. but mostly one my dad will agree with t make him proud of me once again. because a new face=a new life
