How Unfortunate

Coming Out

KELLIN POV

5 weeks have passed since i told vic i would be patient. my patience seemed to be running out every day because vic was sneaking me out of class almost every other class. i knew the next time i stayed the night at his house what was going to be in store. i know when we first started it was me but vic was committed, yet he wouldn't come out. maybe this is it, when i realize i've given him enough time. 

7:50 a.m.

vic and mike were pulling up and of course i was sour at vic for not saying anything yet, his face just made me forget being upset and just want to kiss his soft lips that always smelt and tasted like cherry. when we got to the school mike jumped out to meet the new girl he's been talking to. he has a fat crush on her and he's been telling me about her every day for the past 2 weeks while we drive to school. she has a few tattoos and is a few years older than him and he is so sure they're destined to be together. vic leaned over to me and quickly pecked my lips and was starting for the door when i grabbed his shirt and gently yanked his face towards me, not too aggressive, "can we talk?" i asked. he put his hand over mine that was still holding his shirt in a tightening fist, "yes kells?" i let go of his shirt grabbing his hand back and slowly pulling it down towards the space in between us so no one could see us " im sorry but im getting impatient, i know i said i would give you time but its been over a month and i need to know if you're serious or just using me vic." i looked at him with a serious face in hopes he would get i meant it. i could see he was thinking of what to say and every second that went by made my anxiety increase. i couldn't read his face and i searched his face for an expression i could read. i was scared of what he would say and in those matter of seconds every scary thought that could end what we had ran through my mind. " kellin, i've decided that i love you. i love every moment you let me spend with you. i love your personality and your looks and just you. you're everything i can ever think i want." he dropped my hands as he was talking and im sort of glad he did because if he didn't he would have literally felt my heartbeat go from slow to almost exploding. "but, i really just need time to understand how i feel. i'm sorry for hiding us. i really am. but i have never felt this way about someone, not even close. please kellin i need time" i felt bad. like jumping out of the car and running to class and locking myself in the room until i didn't feel so selfish. i could feel myself turn red as soon as he said that. "im sorry vic, i didn't understand. i love you too maybe even more. i'm just worried someone will try to show their love for you and i won't be able to defend who you are to me without making a scene. i'm really sorry..." i dropped my face and felt a hot tear run down my face and let the shame run through me. "oh kell bear" he said as he lifted my face, i whipped my tear away before he could fully lift my face and see it. he kissed me a meaningful kiss so i would know he didn't mean to make me feel like that. "im okay. it's okay" i said trying to smile at him in response. we got out of his car together and both put our own hands in our pockets to look like we were just bros walking to class "text you in 3rd" he said and we parted ways to go to our classes

THE WEEKEND

VIC POV

" no mom you don't have to cook! we'll see you on monday!" i said as my parents were making excuses to leave later than they planned. they were leaving mike and i this weekend for a fishing trip. i've decided to tell mike about me and kellin since he'll be coming over tonight. 

"Hey mike?" i said walking into his door frame, "yes vic" he said looking up from his math book. " i have something to tell you little brother" i said as i sat on the edge of his bed "go ahead dude" " well mike, i kind of need you to keep what i'm gonna say a secret until we're ready to come out" mike made a face that made my stomach turn once "we? come out? vic what is going on?" i took a deep breath, i knew how close mike and kellin are and i don't want that to change. "well, i'm gay mike. i don't like girls. to be honest i can't stand them, i mean they're good listeners but it doesn't go anywhere for me, i don't like the way they smell compared to a guy." mikes mouth dropped, it was kind of rude. "really? thats what you needed to say? vic thats cool i don't have a problem just don't hit on my friends because i dont want to have to ex- " i cut him off because i needed to finish before kellin came. "kellin and i are together, we've been for a while" mike's mouth dropped again, he's taller than me and kind of startled me when he stood up. " VIC NO! THATS NOT- UGH VIC HOW CAN YOU BE WITH- KELLIN OF ALL PEOPLE? HE ISN'T UGLY ITS JUST OF ALL MY FRIENDS? KELLIN? HAVE YOU GUYS SLEPT TOGETHER? OH MY GOD VIC HAVE YOU GUYS-" I cut him off  "mike, you don't decide who i'm with, we're in love and you have to deal with it. and yes mike, because you are so damn nosy we have." he gasped and i laughed. "BUT HE IS COMING TONIGHT! OH VIC DON'T TELL ME YOU GUYS DID IT WHILE I WAS IN MY ROOM" he yelled again, i laughed even louder because we had " yes mike" i laughed, he grabbed his head and fell on the floor. "so has he had given you a -" "MIKE" i heard a familiar voice yell, it was kellin's. i turned to see his face beet red, he heard! "you're eavesdropping?!' i said acting angry. "i didn't know we were telling mike" he set his bag on the ground next to mike's door and walked in a bit more "JESUS CHRIST KELLIN OF ALL GUYS TO SUCK OFF, MY BROTHER?" kellin got even more red "mike you're being ridiculous" he said "so you didn't?" he asked kellin, i felt my face get red too. "well of course i did but thats none of your business of what we do, why don't you hang out with that girl YOU'VE been telling me about? " kellin was smaller than mike too but was intimidating in that moment. mike sighed. "i won't tell anyone he said, walking out of his room embarrassed for trying to ask us so many questions. 

as mike walked down the stairs kellin turned to walk towards me, i put my arms around his waist and kissed him passionately to make him blush, i let his lips go and just held him in my arms, i smelt his shirt because it always comforting smell, his mom washed all his clothes his whole life and has always used the same lavender soap since we were younger. it was starting to become my favorite scent. i learned that loves does this to you. it makes you gain favorite things that if you had never been in love you wouldn't understand. you fall in love with so many things you notice everything else there is to love. like the way they smell and the way their voice sounds when they say different things. i loved kellin and realized that what other people thought won't matter in a few years. we'll be married and happy and forget that people like them even existed.

he grabbed my hand and led me to my room. he dropped his clothes as quick as i dropped mine, i missed him and this, i missed the feeling of him on me and i was so happy he was here. even more happy that he was mine and i was his.