How Unfortunate

Apologize

Vic POV :

*later Sunday night*

as soon as me and mike got home I went straight to my room. I can't believe how stupid I was. why did I say anything. I should have just told kellin I didn't remember or that I didn't want to talk about it. to make it worse, mike kept bugging me .I know he could tell something was wrong, why couldn't he just leave me alone?
MONDAY :
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I finally heard my phone going , 7:00 am already?

I got up out of bed and was too tired to shower. I picked out a pair of clean skinny's and some random shirt on my floor. as soon as I opened my door there was mike. "hey vic I'm gonna take my own car today, I'm gonna go pick up kellin " I didnt like that idea "um mike no. we can take my car and go get him" I was nervous. "oh okay Vic, that's cool " he said. I ran and grabbed my backpack and my keys and practically jumped down the stairs to beat mike. "everything cool big brother?" he said to me. I don't want him to even guess something happened "um yes everything's cool can we go?" I responded.

   as we got to kellin's I slowly sunk into my seat. I know he wouldn't forget what I said. I couldn't stop repeating yesterday in my mind. how did I say all of that so easily. like as if I meant it. of course I liked kellin, I always have , but..in this world, boys like me date the pretty girls and have the popular relationships until they're out of highschool and completely forget those girls exist. they don't date guys and just.. I was pulled out of thought because I looked up to see kellin walking out of his front door. I saw him notice it was my car and not mikes and his expression dropped.

mike jumped over the seat into the back so kellin could sit in the front. great . he got in only saying hey to mike. and just saying "Vic" to me. I cant blame him. right now I felt so shitty for saying everything. but it was how I felt. partially ..

mike and kellin got out of the car together and walked into school together. how do I avoid kellin all day?

*DURING VIC'S 6TH BLOCK*
*BZZZ BZZZ*
*Vic checks phone*
"mike: I invited kellin over, so wait for us after school "
*Vic sighs*

I was waiting outside of my car for mike and kellin, I get they have classes at the back of the school for their last blocks but could they walk any slower ? as I saw them walk out of the school I got in my car and started it. I thought in my head, maybe I should just apologize to kellin. and ask that we had that conversation again at a different time.
mike : hey Vic
kellin: hey.
as they got in I started going. I drove home fairly fast just trying to get the drive over with. as soon as we got into the drive way I asked kellin to wait.
me: wait kellin
kellin: um yeah
me: can we talk?
kellin: why.
me: about yesterday. please. some of the things I said I didn't mean. I'm sorry. "
and then after I said that, kellin gave me a look, as if I just lied and he was seeing through it. "you know what Vic , your apology did nothing. I don't accept it. and you should learn to think before you speak" I instantly wanted to cry. he got out of the car and slammed the door. Jesus Christ how did I manage to make it worse?