5 dollars and a bag

garbage bag

                 I remember it like it was yesterday, it all started with me taking out the garbage. i sat in the living room wich was really dark for some reason ever since dad left, mom had painted the living room walls brown. she started working her way with the living room it went from the walls being brown to the counch being black. i never knew why she did that but i figured it had somthing to do with dad leaving it gave her somthing to do. i was reading a book called land of the lost i had been reading it for five days and was already on page 500. i had my black sweats on with my yellow shirt and a bonnet on. figured i would give the room a splash of color. my mom came in fussing at me with her beer in her left hand like she always did when she was down. she had drunk all her sorrows away. i hated that she drinks, she alway put it on me luckly i was the only child and i was 16. cause she could bearly take care of her self. ever since dad left she had been like this, trust me she used to be way better then this."cay why cant you be like chelsea from down the street" she asked. i sat there and kept reading my book as if i could not here her."cay, cay im talking to you, see you are nun the like that girl she is smarter and  prettier than you". i sat there still she alway came in and talked down on me i learned to ignore it. all though i was tired of it i just looked over it cause i knew that she was just sad and angry from dad leaving. nobody knows why dad left but her. he wrote a letter to us but she never let me see. till this day i have tried to get a hold of  it." cay i need for you to take out the trash NOWW!!! she raised her voice and had that face that she did when she was mad,  eyes squinted at me with so much anger. of course she was angry because i was not responding but what she said next hurt me so much."cay so you don't here me your just like your dad I WISH YOU WERE NEVER MY DAUGHTER! she yelled at me.I got up and went towards the kitchen to grab a trash bag."tuh oh now you want to take put the trash" she said with such cockyness in her voice "NO im going to put my clothes in this trash bag so i can get away from your lonley depressed drunk ASS". you should have saw her face when  i said that it was a mixed emotion face it was like she was mad and hurt at the same time."leave and never come back" when she said that it was like she wasn't drunk anymore she was just still and calm.I packed my clothes and left and the only problem was where was i going to go...