Random Thoughts

Never Knew

I never knew I could hurt so much. I never knew I could hurt someone so much. I aaid I was not going to leave, but yet I left.

I have cried nonstop since I stopped talking to them. I don't expect them to forgive me. I don't expect them to let me come back. I had someone that cared for me, bit I had to ruin it.

I am messed up. I know that already. I am hurting because of words. It most likely wasn't her, but it still hurt.

I know I make no sense and that nobody cares about my problems. But this makes so much sense to me. I finally had happiness, but i ruined it.

The last 2 and a half months has been the best part of my life. I loved them so much. I still do. But I just had to ruin it like I ruin everything else. I most likely ruined my new BTS hoodie, it is covered in my tears. Maybe it will be covered in my blood next.
I found people that cared and loved me. But I left them. She said give her a day or two, but i don't think she wants to take me back. I ruined our friendships. I got called names that hurt tho...they hurt bad....

Well I guess that's it for now.