When I woke up in the hospital I started screaming right away. Pulling at the restraints trying to get free. I need to get back home. I need to die. I need to be with you jal. I wanted to get out so bad I didn't even feel the pain of my cuts. I just kept screaming and screaming until the nurse came in and gave me a shot that made me feel drunk and giddy. I was slowly formulating a plan to get out of here. Then I blacked out.
